Guilty of Unbidden Pleasure

Chapter 10

Gabriel's POV

"Huwag kang maingay baka magising tange!"

"Namumugto mata, inano mo yan Blue?" 

Nagising ako dahil sa ingay. 

The first person I saw is Blue. 

Nang mapansin niyang nagising ako ay agad siyang lumapit. 

"Gab, how are you feeling?" He asked. 

"Hospital?" I asked. 

Tumango siya. 

I tried to stand up pero nakaramdam ako ng hapdi sa paa ko. 

"Don't move Gabriel. Baka bumukas ang sugat ng paa mo. Tsk" Blue stopped me

"What happened?" I asked. 

"Buti nalang na-dial mo si Blue. He found you unconcious sa condo mo, puro dugo ang paa mo, might be because of the shattered glass. Ano bang nangyari?" Dash asked 

Tinitigan ko si Blue. 

He is looking at me too. 

Should I tell him about the memories? No need..

"Panic attack" mahinang saad ko. 

Blue sighed. 

Then he slowly hugged me. 

"I'm sorry Gabby. Buti nalang tinawagan mo pa rin ako." He said 

"Uh, bibili pala kami ng pagkain." Sabi ni Dash habang hinihila sila Benj at Levi palabas ng kwarto. 

"Nasaan na yung babae mo?" I bitterly asked. 

Huminga ng malalim si Blue. 

"Sorry na nga eh." He said 

Umiwas ako ng tingin. 

"He was at my seat. I thought your car is off limits?" I said. 

"He is not a hook up babe. Benj asked for a favor. To pick her up." He explained. 

Agad akong napalingon sa kanya? 

What? 

"Then why are you so angry? You even.. you even brought up me asking you to date girls." I said

"I was just correcting you. What you did was wrong. Then you kept pushing me away, saying mean things. I have feelings too Gabby, I was hurt. I'm sorry." he softly said 

"I was scared... and jealous... I'm sorry" I whispered 

Napakunot ang noo niya. 

 "What?" He looks amazed 

Inirapan ko siya. 

"She was at my seat! Tapos you even asked me to go at the back! I felt betrayed. Akala ko ipagpapalit mo na ako" nakasimangot kong paliwanag. 

He chuckled. He fixed my hair. 

"Hindi kita ipagpapalit, kulit mo. Next time, let's talk calmly. This should serve as a lesson to us okay?" He said. 

I nodded. Then I remembered. 

"You said.. you were dating them.. because of me?That was nine years ago Blue. Ginawa mo pala talaga? Akala ko babaero ka lang talaga" Bulong ko 

"I... 

I'm not proud but yes. I am still fulfilling my promise even until now. You were so broken before. What happened with your Mom and Dad leaving you scarred you. Then you asked me to hurt girls. I know it's not a good idea but I was desperate before. Hindi ko kayang makita ka araw araw na parang pinagkaitan ng mundo. Do you remember Diana?" He asked while playing with my hand. 

Diana. 

How can I forget that bitch? She always makes fun of me just because my Mom was a lesbian. 

"I fucking hate that girl to the core." Mahinang sagot ko 

Tumango tango si Blue. 

"One day, you were crying out of anger because of her. You asked me to date her for 3 days then dump her after. The plan was stupid but I can't afford you crying because of her rubbing your pain to you. Kaya I tried. You were so happy when she cried at school because of what I did. That was the first time you laughed ever since your Dad passed away. And that was just the start of it. I know, karma will hit me soon, but everytime your eyes will shine whenever I dump a girl, hindi ko mapigilan. The satisfaction your eyes show whenever I choose you over them, nakakalimutan ko na ang tama at mali. You doesn't even realize pero until now, the spark in your eyes kept me going. I know the reason doesn't justify what I am doing but do you remember what I've said before?" 

Napakunot ang noo ko. 

He looked straight into my eyes. 

"I don't care who will get hurt as long as you are happy and satisfied. Like what I said bestfriend. It's you, or nobody else"

I know it's wrong and we'll probably pay for it someday but I felt.... happy..