A Cat's worth (Catradora Modern AU) (COMPLETE!)

Chapter 11 : Fake

TW: Blood, Suicidal thoughts/ actions

Catras POV:

Being back in my room i replay what just happened ad infinitum, refusing to believe it

"Adora can't be Gay....that would mean I actually have a chan..." i stop myself from finishing that thought by running a claw over my left Arm, letting the warm Blood flow slowly out of the Wound

I hear Shadow Weavers voice again

"You don't deserve her. You don't deserve anyone. Noone will Love you no matter what you do"

I knew that this was my own mind talking in the voice i subconsciously choose to give it because Sharon never knew i was Gay

"Yeah....I know. " Adora deserves someone better, someone equal, someone who.... Loves her

"like i do" i finish the thought and claw another gash into my Arm "No! no..i don't love her, i don't even like her... im her Friend thats all ... yeah thats all i am and nothing is going to change that"

I press an old t-shirt on my wounds and wait for the bleeding to stop. At this point i had to get out of this House even faster than i thought, before i did something really stupid and tell her my pathetic feelings.

I slowly drift to sleep a few minutes later, no longer caring what i was wearing. I just wanted to not feel anything anymore.

Adoras POV:

Waking up, with the memory of yesterday, made me nervous from minute one. "Okay...let's see what the damage is"

I walk downstairs after i get dressed in a simple gray Hoodie and some Jeans "Good morning Adora" a smiling Catra greets me, dressed in a black long sleeve shirt and shorts, looking absolutely perfect while she stands in the Kitchen, something sizzling in a Pan before her "sleep well?"

"Yeah....somewhat" i was a bit stunned Catra could cook anything considering the past few years "what are you doing?"

"Breakfast Duh...?"

"didn't think you can cook" i say, still trying to get over the initial awkwardness

"I can't but i can throw Bacon and eggs in a pan and wait.....i'm not sure that can be called cooking" she lets out a loud, shrill laugh "gimme a minute. How you want your eggs?"

"ömm scrambled?" I start getting two plates out and make some coffee. In a way I felt relieved she took yesterday's news so well....but something feels off. I can't put my finger on it though so i ignore it....for now.

I check my Phone and see the Time on my unlock screen 07:34 when Mara comes in, dressed in her Work clothes (a Dark Blue Dress Suit). "Morning Girls, i'm going to need to get going soon"

Catra walks out of the Kitchen, holding a small container "Hey Mara i made you something to take to work"

Mara and I stop and look at her "th..thank you Catra...you know you didn't need to do this right?"

"I know but i want to" she answers with a genuine smile " I wanted to thank you somehow and i doubt saving my life and me making you a Sandwich are equal in importance"

Mara smiles "well thank you, i do appreciate it. See you later Girls"

"Bye Mara" "Bye Mom" we say in unison and sit down to eat

"What does Mara do that makes her work on sundays?"

"She is an Architect that works in a big Firm in the middle of the City. 'First ones Architects' if that tells you something"