A Cat's worth (Catradora Modern AU) (COMPLETE!)

Chapter 43 : Catra

TW: Death, Torture, Blood

Catras POV:

I wake up in my old Bed in the Orphanage and am confused before my Memory kicks in, making me remember why my Bed feels like shit. Suddenly Weaver walks in and has a small Child at her Hand "Here, fresh meat" Sharon says before she leaves, throwing the door closed.

The Small blonde Child turns around and looks at me "H-hey...im A-adora"

I can feel my whole Body contort in pain and happiness at the same time. This is the day Adora and i met for the first time...almost 15 years ago..."Hey...im Cat-ra"

"Why are you crying?" she asks with the worried expression i've seen far to often now a days

I swipe the Tears away and rush to hug her "You'll know one day ..."

I blink and suddenly i'm no longer a Child. Adora and the Orphanage are gone and i am standing in a Maze filled with Fog. Mirror like surfaces surround me but instead of my Reflection, they show me various moments of my Life. My first time being beaten by Sharon, the first time Adora wanted to play with me, the time Lonnie helped me with a wound, the time when Rogelio and Kyle got really nervous when we talked about them as a couple, the last Day i saw Adora... I stayed and watched the events replay. I was in despair when i imagined my life without the blonde even at the early age we were...the only one that tried to understand me back then.

Truth be told, the whole ordeal is a rather Hazy memory for me. Being only Ten years old might have something to do with it or maybe the fact that part of me wanted to forget it. I was Crying so much, holding on to Adora like my Life depended on it, desperate, scared and unspeakably Sad, while she was assuring me that my Adoption was a good thing and that we would see each other again....i can't remember what Face she made back then.

I thought I would lose my Mind back then, yet I came out semi okay.....well my self confidence and self worth was shattered to dust because of the years of abuse and the loss of the only Person that ever meant anything to me but at least i was alive and to me that is already a lot. Now I don't think about dying as much as i used to, no longer cry alone when i know noone can hear and even my Nightmares have become less and less....Adora is a miracle and the best thing that ever happened to me.

"I have become stronger than I ever thought i could be" i whisper and start walking again, taking the trip down memory lane further. Next, images appear of us meeting again, her fight with Alex, my feelings for her and the fear associated with them returning, hurting myself, hiding them and running away, feeling only shame

"Boy, i was such an idiot" i say to myself with a small laugh

I continue until i hit upon the Memory of Adora getting shot in the Warehouse and i feel the blood in my Veins run cold as Ice. The very image makes me want to jump into the floating, jagged Mirror like object in the hope i could spare her the pain at least. Not able to look at it any longer i walk away in a fast pace, passing our fight after she got shot, the talks with the others about what we are going to do, the travel to Krytis and suddenly i find myself in front of a Door.

I push it open and stand in a brightly lit Room with access to a balcony. From here i can see a large Garden, a Swingset, a giant Trampoline and a small shack for tools or Gardening supplies "The fuc....where am i?"

I slowly make my way inside. The Room is decorated beautifully with lots of little knick knacks like Mara had in her Home back in Bright Moon City. Small wooden ornaments, Figurines and plaques are everywhere and mixed with a slight smell of lavender coming from the garden, give this place a real 'Homie' feeling for lack of a better word.