A Cat's worth (Catradora Modern AU) (COMPLETE!)

Chapter 40 : Flutterina

TW: Blood, mentions of Sex

Adoras POV:

I am standing in the Warehouse, Blood pouring from my Stomach. My vision is blurry, the Pain intense and I hear voices that sound far away. Catra is beside me, looking at me in horror, ready to pounce and clearly deathly afraid

My Body refuses to listen to me when I try to move or speak, the Pain overruling any other instinct I have. Fear seeps deep into my Bone and a thought emerges "I am going to die"

Different faces of loved ones, one after the other, come to mind, with the knowledge I would never see them again. Glimmer, my best Friend, Bow, the most genuine person i've ever met, Perfuma, Scorpia, DT...people i now wish i knew better.... Mara, my Mother who will never truly know what has happened to me and why. I'm about to pass out when a shot wakes me from this half delirious state and Catra now lies in a, slowly expanding Pool of Blood in front of me, turns her Head to look me in the Eyes "This is all your Fault"

I shoot up, covered in sweat and trying to scream but it ends up in a coughing fit because of my dry throat. Catra lies sleeping beside me, a low purr coming from her, letting me know that she is fine "I am going to need a shit ton of Therapie to work through all of this" i think as i let myself lie back on the Bed, only now feeling the Pain in my Stomach set back in

Said Pain is now 20 times worse than it had been the day before and I already miss the Morphin that helped me feel none of it, yesterday. Remembering the previous Day, i slowly move some Hair from Catras face "Im sorry" i whisper and kiss her Forehead

"Don't be" she mutters and opens her eyes "Hey gorgeous" Catra says with a smile that i would kill for

"Catra im .."

"I know, Miho already told me you were sorry and so am i. I just needed a moment alone, that's all"

"You sure?"

"Yeah. Actually got a pep talk from Mirai and it helped a bit. If i had stayed in the room, i know i would have had another ...episode and that was a better alternative" Catra explains, getting up and cupping my Face softly "How do you feel?"

"Like i was shot"

"Hmm i wonder why you'd feel that way...weird"

I look at her with one eyebrow raised "What? Too soon?" Catra says with a forced smile

"Maybe it's because you usually act better or it's because i can always tell when you are lying Catra but i do not believe you'd joke about this. You were terrified yesterday....and i think you still are"

Catra looks away from me, bites her bottom lip and nods, looking like a kicked puppy and i slowly lean over "Hey...look at me" she turns to me slowly, her face contorted in a way that shows how desperate she was hoping to seem okay and already failing to stop the Tears. I force her Head to my Chest "It's ok...you don't need to pretend in front of me..."

Starting with a quiet whimper, turning to a loud wail of cries with Catra trying to talk in between, I just continue to hug her. Yesterday I could have died, simple as that and I don't think Catra would have forgiven herself if that had happened. Now with the immediate danger dealt with, this hit her a lot harder than it had yesterday when the adrenaline and a lot of other stuff going on, made it easy to ignore. She did not hug me back, but took a big fist of the Blanked and Betcover in order not to hurt me with her Claws by accident again.

It takes a few minutes for her to finally be somewhat calm "Im sorry..im so sorry Adora" she says, her voice hoarse and quiet but sincere

"I hate it when you say this you know...I don't blame you for anything. I got hurt and that's because of my own actions, so it's not your fault" I cup her Face "don't ever think i'm going to leave you because it's dangerous or because i can get hurt...i don't care about that, as long as i know you are save. I made you leave once and i regret it a lot, costing me two years with the Person i want to be with more than anyone else"