Toxic Love - the beginning of the end Part | LH FF (Part 2/English version)

S I X T E E N

The fear that I might have lost myself into something haunted me all the way to the hotel room.

For a while I just lay there and did nothing. But due the fact that I still had time for the race to start, I decided to go down. So I changed clothes and then went to the breakfast room. I don't had the intention to eat something, but maybe there was someone else who needed company...?

I had almost given up hope and wanted to leave again until I actually discovered someone who looked like he needed company. „Mick?" I greeted the German. „What are you doing here? Shouldn't you actually have to be with your team and prepare for the race..?" With a friendly smile on my lips, I sat down opposite him at the table. The muesli bowl that stood in front of him was empty, as well was the plate, where, except for a few bread crumbs, could no nothing be found.

„Actually, I do, but I still have a little time, that's why I'm sitting here..." He explained what I replied with an understanding nod. „And you? Surely you have better things to do than sitting here..." He laughed and I couldn't help but laugh too. Because he was actually right. There was a lot I should have done now, and yet I sat here... „Well, you're actually right, but it's quietest here." I tried to explain myself somehow and hoped I would believe my words myself. But I didn't. I wasn't here for the reason it was quite, I was here because I wanted to distract myself. Distract from Lewis, our quarrel and the thoughts that arise within me when I am alone...

„That's true, there are a lot of cameras travelling..." Mick smiled, and then told me about the many interviews he already gave this weekend. I could only be amazed and was happy not to be stuck in his skin. If I had at least ten interviews every day, where I am only asked the same questions anyway, I would probably freak out sooner than later...

„Actually, you're right, but I would still always decide for Formula One... It's stressful, but that's part of it. In addition, you really get around a lot and see a lot of-" The German interrupted himself. Confused I looked at him, then I understood what was going on.

„Can we talk briefly?" Lewis gaze pierced me. I didn't want to talk to him, because in his eyes I still saw remnants of anger, and I knew it wouldn't take much to rekindle the embers.

Nevertheless, I agreed, because I knew there was no point in postponing this in front of me. In addition, the weekend should not end like this... In an unspoken quarrel. „Fine." He answered and was about to kill Mick with his looks. The German recognised directly what was going on and said goodbye to us.

„What do you want?" I asked and tried to sound as bored as possible while Lewis sat down on Mick's place. „We have to talk about earlier..." He started, I turned my eyes away. „Oh really, do we have to do that..." I was really annoyed by him. „Yes, Liv, we have to. I know I behaved like a complete idiot, but I want to make up for it. I want to apologise..." My gaze twitched at him, he smiled. It was hard to believe that he was not serious about this apology.

These eyes, that damn smile, I loved him way too much. I loved him so much that I had completely forgotten what had happened earlier. Suddenly I didn't realise how he treated me anymore. Suddenly I only saw him, I could only imagine too well how his soft lips must feel.

„I'm sorry, Liv." He reached for my hand, and unfortunately I was too slow to pull it away. But maybe I didn't want that either, maybe I really wanted to forget that we yelled at each other earlier... Stop - He wasn't allowed to have me under such control! How ridiculous, considering that he had this long ago...

„Lewis..." I pulled my hand out of his. „I'm really angry, you know? You, you yelled at me for literally no reason and now you think you can just come here and everything's just fine again?" I tried to stay calm, but I felt that something was boiling inside me.

„First of all, I had a reason," Lewis said, I rolled my eyes and sighed annoyed. „And secondly, I apologised..." I would have liked to punch him for the grin on his lips. „Come on..." He got up and walked around the table, only to sit next to me, both legs next to the bench.

„No, Lewis." I slipped a bit away from him, to be close to him was the worst thing at the moment. „You don't understand that. I can't go on like this if you don't see that wearing a bikini sometimes is just normal... I'm not someone you can prescribe things to. I am an independent person..." He grabbed me by the hip and pulled me towards him. „I know, and I'm sorry. Such a thing will never happen again, but what should I do? You're so incredibly hot, and I don't want any guys to see you like that..." He wrapped his arms around my body to pull me even closer to him.
At that moment it had happened to me, and I couldn't help but forgive him.

„All right, Apologie accepted..." I finally hummed and had to grin. I would have liked to punch one over myself. Why did he have to be able to make me melt like that?

„But just so that's clear," I raised my finger rebubbly. „If something like that happens ever again, I'm not so nice anymore!" Lewis nodded eagerly, „promised", which is why I had to start giggling. „You are really an idiot. And I hate you..."

„I love you too." Lewis grinned, and then pressed a kiss on the tip of my nose. „Now let's go," Lewis said firmly before he got up. „The Drivers Parade is starting soon, and a little bird chirped me that you are taking part on it." My eyes literally fell out of my head when he mentioned that. „I'll take part in WHAT, please?"
„At the Drivers Parade" Lewis replied and laughed. His outstretched hand was supposed to suggest me that I should come with him, but I was far too perplexed to realise that, which is why he pulled me with him without further ado.

Together we walked to the paddock, but my head was still full of question marks. In which life had I ever agreed to participate in this parade? After all, I wasn't a driver?! It didn't really want to open up to me, which was also reflected in my face. „Was that your idea or that of my father?" I asked while we were running into the garage. At the same moment I discovered the team boss and CEO, he sat in front of a monitor and discussed some things with one of the strategists. Lewis did not answer. Confused, I turned around, and then had to realise that the he was no longer there at all. Sighing, I turned forward again.

„Well, thank you for this answer..." I thought so for myself while my path led me to my father. „Hey, my darling..." He greeted me, but paid little attention to me. On days like these, on Sundays where it is about winning, he is always like that. Distracted and somehow distant. By now I know that this is not the case because his job is more important to him than me, but it still annoys me a little.

But right now, that he has find out about Lewis and me, I feel like he is doing all this extra. I think he just doesn't want to realise it, and that's why he's so weird... „Is everything okay?" He looked at me worried while he ran his hand over my arm. I nodded silently, even though it was kind of a lie. Nothing was really okay, but I didn't really want to go into it any further either...