Princess Charming (gxg)

Part 42

Hallie's POV
I could hear the change in Alina's voice after I told her that I was staying with Chloe.

When I saw that Alina was calling me, I immediately picked up the phone. I didn't care how desperate it might have seemed.

Maybe she's about to tell me that this was all a mistake and she wants to work things out.

The last thing I wanted to do was have Alina worry that something was going to happen between Chloe and I.

I didn't want to leave Alina's. I wanted to stay, more than anything. But I thought it would make things worse, us having to see each other every day.

And I wouldn't be able to handle not treating her like my girlfriend when I saw her.

I knew Alina didn't trust Chloe. For good reason.

However, I didn't know where else to go. When I was having dinner at the Blue Sage cafe with Chloe, she told me that if I needed to stay somewhere else at all, I was more than welcome in her apartment.

I had told her a bit of what I was going through with Alina. Not too much in-depth, out of respect for Alina, but I did tell her things were rough, and Alina was having a tough time.

I didn't expect that today I would be calling Chloe asking if I could stay with her.

The car ride to Chloe's was one of the loneliest points of my life.

I didn't have my family to go back to. Not that I would even want to.

And I didn't have Alina. Yes, we agreed to still talk. But her not being my girlfriend anymore killed me inside. I don't even think it had fully settled in yet.

The only place I had to go was Chloe's. Otherwise, I would have had to stay in my car.

Chloe had an extra bedroom in her apartment that she said I could sleep in for as long as I needed. I was grateful, but in turn I was going to worry Alina.

What a fucking mess.

I sat in the spare bedroom at Chloe's, on the pull out couch that converted into a small bed. There was also a desk in the room, and a small dresser. I found myself closing my eyes, and entering the realm of my racing thoughts.

What if Alina and I don't get back together?

I can't let that happen. I seriously can't.

I can't even imagine waking up tomorrow and not seeing her.

I was also trying to wrap my head around why we broke up.

I understood that she had past trauma. And that sometimes it's best for people to figure out their health on their own.

But goddamnit- I just wanted to be there for her.

I hadn't stopped crying all day. In front of Chloe I kept it together, but anytime I was by myself, I could not stop the tears from falling.

I needed to get out of this room. I couldn't just stare at the four walls, getting deeper and deeper into my thoughts.

Chloe had a deck off living room, as she lived on the third floor of the building she was in.

She wasn't even in the apartment tonight. She was on a Tinder date with a guy that she met. Part of me was relieved that I was by myself. But the other part of me didn't want to be alone.

The silence was deafening.

I put on a hoodie and a hat, and went out on the deck. Chloe had two chairs and a small table on the deck, and at least I could hear cars passing by. It was 9 PM, and it was dark out, so I turned on the deck light.

I couldn't even bring myself to turn on music to mask the silence. I thought about even getting my laptop to bring outside and play games on.

But that wouldn't help anything.

I walked over to the ledge of the deck and leaned my arms against it, looking out below, and also at the night sky.

Once again, I found myself wiping away tears with the sleeve of my hoodie.

I miss Alina already.

She wasn't just my girlfriend. She was truly my best friend. There was no one else that understood me like she did. From the day we met, I never had to explain myself to her. She just accepted me for who I was.

She also made me want more in life. Before I met Alina, I didn't even know when or if I would ever move out of my parents basement. I didn't have any goals to move my life forward. However, I pictured myself getting an apartment with Alina to start off. I even thought about going back to college to try and make more money to give us a more comfortable life. Many things that my anxiety held me back from doing, the thought of doing them with Alina made me excited.

I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I immediately grabbed it, and I looked at who was calling.

Alina.

I answered, heart pounding. "Hello?"

"Hallie, I'm sorry about how I just abruptly hung up before." Alina's voice came through, "Regardless of who you're staying with, I'm just glad you're safe."

"I understand why you got concerned or mad." I said, "But I swear, I would never do a thing with Chloe."

"I know." Alina said, "I believe that. Even if she tried, I know you wouldn't. Even though...you technically can."

"The thought of anyone else doesn't even cross my mind." I said to Alina.

"Same here, of course." Alina responded. She sounded drained. She then asked me, "How are you right now?"

I sighed, "I'm not doing well."

"Neither am I." Alina said, "I've been in the game room for hours."

"I wish I was there with you." I said, "I'm on the deck, just getting some fresh air."

Alina then said, "I know it's probably selfish of me to want. But I can't stand the thought of not talking to you. Not knowing how you are. I know I have to work through things within myself, but don't think for a second that I am not thinking about you as well."

"I don't want this to be the end of us." I said, "Of course I want to talk to you still."

"It's not going to be, Hallie." Alina said.

I just have to hold out hope on this one.

It's just the living through holding out hope that's going to be hell.

A/N: I know it may seem weird that Hallie and Alina are still talking, but I wanted to show that not all break ups are just black and white and you completely cut the person off. It can be very tough to navigate. Thank you for reading ❤️