Scars On Her Soul

Chapter 16: The warmth of his arms

Vienna's POV

Tonight we were going to have dinner at Grace's place. Staring out of the window, I breathed deeply as Michael pulled over at Ryan's family's mansion while I was staring down at my fingers, playing with them, yeah it was a silly attempt to distract myself from this knot that I was feeling in my stomach.

You might have guessed it by now, I was nervous...I was damn nervous. I couldn't help but feel nervous these days, well I was not nervous about the dinner...it was just a casual one and I'm more than comfortable with the 'Knights', to feel even slightly nervous around them.

Now they are my family too.

So, no, this family dinner was not the reason behind my nervous and anxiousness.

It's just that...it's just a week until I finally tie the knot with the love of my life...and everything is going so good that I feel anxious all the time that what if something goes wrong? What if we don't end up getting married to eachother?

You know like it happens in the movies, when you think that everything's going well and smooth and then suddenly the main protagonists don't end up together, instead they part their ways.

Like what if Ryan abandons me? Leaves me waiting for him at the altar?

That's what happens right? When they need to bring some twist.

And considering our history and the fact that happiness doesn't lasts for a very long time in our lives, I'm afraid that something might go down the wrong lane right before our wedding.

And then there's...my mother...

Well...she is already against my decision of getting married to Ryan, just because she thinks that he'll break my heart by abandoning me once again like he did earlier.

I spoke to her over a phone call...because Ryan somehow convinced me that I should try and mend my relation with my mother, and even I have been wanting to do that since quite a while now but I guess I just needed that slight push that Ryan gave me.

And we spoke like any other normal mother and daughter until I mentioned that we have picked a date for our wedding.

Even though I already told her about my decision of getting married to Ryan when we visited her back at her place but I guess she was just hoping that by now I might have changed my mind and knowing that we were already preparing for our big day, just made it more real for her this time.

Of course she was mad. She even tried to convince me against my decision but instead I just told her very calmly that I would really love to have my mother by my side on my big day and I assume that made her realise that no matter what she said or did, there was no way on earth that I was going to change my decision.

So she didn't say much after that, but instead just hung up after saying that this decision will turn out to be the biggest regret of my life.

And even though for a while I tried not to show it but I was hurt by her words, it was like my own mother cursed my married life before it even began, and finally when I couldn't hold all of this inside myself any longer, I broke down in front of Ryan...telling him about my conversation with my mother.

He had asked earlier what we spoke about and if all went good but I refused to tell him, telling him that everything was fine but he knew me better than that, he knew something was up but he decided to give me the time that I needed and told me that he'll be there to listen whenever I felt like sharing.

And when I did tell him, initially he was kinda mad that my mother hurt me but then he promised me that she'll be present at our big day, blessing us.

“Don't you dare kidnap her, Ryan, she's my mother, not your girlfriend” I warned him while referring to the time when he had me kidnapped as he just chuckled at my outburst.