Nothing We Could Do

Chapter 18

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It had been two whole days and I couldn't get that cocky asshole out of my head.

During lecture, I couldn't stop looking back and stealing glances at him, though he caught me more than once, flashing me his usual playboy grin. It had never had an effect on me before but now, well you can just say I got what all those girls saw in him.

I'd tried to recreate that mind blowing sensation in my bed, under the sheets, but it wasn't the same. The way his fingers had moved inside me... It sent a shiver of pleasure down my body just by thinking about it.

I groaned and flung my pen across the dorm. There was no way I was doing any studying if he was the only thing on my mind.

Chloe had left early to spend Christmas at her parents house, even though it was only November. I guess when your rich like that, skipping lectures is hardly something that matters in the long run.
But that was good, because it meant I didn't have to break the news about me and Kioshi to her, I just hoped she wouldn't find out another way. It's not like I was actually dating him or anything, but it would hurt her nonetheless.

I was a fucking horrible friend but I'd kind of made peace with that fact.

I walked over to my bed and flopped down on it. I'd be spending Christmas alone again, not like that holiday had any significance to me. It had stopped becoming at all important when my parents decided to kick me out at sixteen. But the more I thought about it, it probably stopped being meaningful way before that.

My phone buzzed and I reached for it, a little confused. I didn't really have any friends apart from Chloe who would text me. And I didn't have social media either.

Unlocking the screen, I saw the single notification from Kioshi.

I immediately sat up straight and alert as I quickly read over the message,

Match tonight. You coming?

I read over it a few times more. Did he want me to come? That fluttery feeling in my stomach started up again as I typed back,

Do you want me to come?

He was typing.

No, not really

My chest sank a little bit then I saw he was typing again,

You'd distract me, I can't stop thinking about you again

A huge smile broke out on my face and I bit my lip to stop myself from giggling like a teen with a crush. He couldn't stop thinking about me just as much as I couldn't stop thinking about him.

Before I could hesitate and back out, I took in a deep breath and typed.

I can't stop thinking about you too

I practically threw my phone across the bed like it was radioactive and curled into a ball, squeezing me eyes shut out of embarrassment.

Oh my god. I was flirting. I'd never done that before, not even with Adam.

The phone pinged and I craned my neck to see his notification. Slowly, I uncurled myself and picked it up, swiping on his message.

Oh my God Ivanna is flirting with me???? The world is about to end

I giggled stupidly at his tease. It was weird. I didn't know what had changed.

Shut up

I texted back, the stupid smile still on my face.