Tattered Souls

Chapter 33: I'm Coming

Ashley

It's the last night of the trip and as I'm scrolling through Facebook I see something that catches my attention.

Jason posted a picture of him trying on a tuxedo and I was a little confused at first until I saw the wedding ring on his hand. My heart broke, not for me, but for Sam as I scrolled through his page and found the announcement.

He proposed to Paige, and she said yes. I instantly tried to call Sam but when I didn't get an answer, my mind went to the worst.

I know Sam. I know she wouldn't leave me like that, but I know she is hurting.

While I'm out here enjoying myself, she has been suffering all alone.

Why didn't she call me? Why isn't she answering her phone??

Tears well in my eyes as I rush to go find Taylor. She's stepping out of the shower when i shove the phone in her face. 

"We have to go back. Sam...she's not answering me. I don't know how long ago this was but I know she needs me. I've called and called but she won't pick up and she's not answering my texts and...and..."

She gently cups my face as tears stream down it. 

"Hey hey breathe baby. Calm down. I'm sure Sam is okay."

I quickly shake my head as my anxiety starts to kick in. 

"No no she would've called! Now that I think about it, I haven't heard from her all week and that isn't like her at all..she didn't even call to make sure I was okay... No Somethings wrong. We have to get back!"

She sigh before kissing the top of my head. "Okay okay. We will be on the first plane that leaves in the morning. Let start packing up."

I nod my head and grab my bag stuffing everything I can into it. I know I'm probably over reacting but something in the pit of my stomach is telling me I'm not.

I have to get back, before something terrible happens.

My leg shakes harder the closer we get to Sam's house.

I have been calling and texting her since I got off the plane, but she still hasn't responded. I just want to know that she's okay.

It's not like her to not respond to me at all, and that's what scares me the most. Usually she answers on the first ring no matter what when I call, but right now all I'm getting is her voice mail.

Every time I hear her voice on the message I feel my heart twist because I have no idea what she's doing that would prevent her from answering.

I keep asking myself in my head, Has she been eating? Is she drinking? Did she hurt herself? She wouldn't hurt herself. At least I hope she wouldn't...

I jump a little when I feel Taylor's hand lay on my thigh to steady my leg. "Calm down babe. We're almost there."

I nod my head and when we pull up to her driveway I sigh, relieved that her car and her bike were at least parked there.

I give Taylor a quick kiss and hop out of the car, not even bothering to grab my bags. I knock on the door and get no answer so I use my key to unlock the door and instantly gag at the smell that hits my face.

At a first glance, all I see are beer bottle and pizza boxes thrown all over the place. It smells horrible and as I open the door more to get inside I hear her groaning in the kitchen. "Could you shut the goddamn door?! Jesus."

She walks around the island rubbing her head and I give her a look as if she's lost her mind. "Umm, who the fuck do you think you're talking to?!"

I storm over to her getting in her face as a look of panic hits hers. She's never raised her voice at me.

Never.

I know she's upset, but that doesn't give her the right to talk to me like that. "I know you're upset but you must have lost your mind talking to me like that! Ill help you find it though, real quick!"

She drops her head as my Latina side starts to come out. I start to say something else when I see a tear fall from her eye.

She leans against the counter looking away from me and I sigh before easing closer,gently cupping her face in my hands. "Are you okay sweetie? I know you've just been in here sulking."

She gives me a sad smile and when she finally looks into my eyes, I feel my heart break. The light in her eyes is no longer visible and I can tell that she's just been crying non stop.

I've seen her hurt before but this is different. She really cared for paige, fully gave herself to her.

I know me and Paige just patched things up, but I'll never forgive her for this. "You really need to get it together babe. You're going to lose yourself in here."

She sighs wrapping her hands around my waist as I gently rub her cheek with my thumb. "I'm sorry for keeping you in the dark ash. I just...I didn't know what to do."

I wipe the tears away as they stream down her face. I can tell that she's starting to have dark thoughts again so I try to keep her calm. "Hey hey, it's okay baby. I'm here, I'm here." She nods and I bite my lip a little as she pulls me in closer,sliding her hands to my lower back.

I know what she's doing.

It's the same things he does every time she gets her heart broken.

Normally, I would just give in. I'd let her have her way with me and take out all of her frustrations on me, but I can't.

I can't do that to Taylor, or myself.

I feel her kiss my cheek and start to kiss a little lower when I gently push her back by her chest. "Sam...baby you can't..." Tears well in my eyes as I deny her what she I know she wants. She looks at me a little hurt but I try to avoid her gaze.

"Come on. Lets get you some fresh air."