Behind his smile...

Chapter 31

Matt's P.O.V.

I'm sitting in my room petting Burnie. The drugs have worn off and I feel depressed again.

"Burnie, what am I gonna do?" I asked Burnie.

He just looked at me with the same expression that is always on his face.

"I mean seriously, why?" I ask myself.

"Why am I the depressed shit of a person? Why?" I begin to cry.

I wipe away the tears before they can actually fall.

I take out a pack of gum and grab a piece.
Gum always calms my nerves. Maybe that's why I'm always chewing it.

I take a deep breath.

"Burnie, I need those pills you don't get it." I said looking at Burnie.

"How am I gonna get them back?" I ask myself.

"Maybe I'll sneak into Sarah's room?" I say.

"Yea, I mean. She loves me. Well hates me. But she probably secretly loves me!" I convince myself.

Burnie just sits there starring at me.

"Aww cute little Burnie." I say.

"Matt?" I hear my name being called by my mom.

"Yea?" I sigh.

"Dinners ready." She said.

"I'm going out with some friends for dinner." I yell.

"Oh?" My mom questions coming into my room.

"Yup." I say.

"Well don't stay out too long." She said walking out of my room.

I put my vans on and changed my shirt because it smells awful.

"See ya Burnie." I pet his head.

"Bye." I yell leaving the house.

I walk over to Sarah's house and wonder if I should knock.

Before I can think of an answer I'm ringing the door bell.

"Fuck, can't leave now." I said.

"Oh Matthew honey come in." Sarah's mom answers the door.

"Hey mrs. Jones. Is uh. Sarah home?" I ask.

"Yes she's upstairs." She said.

"Thanks." I say walking up stairs.

I pause once as I get up to her room. The doors closed and I take in how it all looks.

I haven't really been in here in a while.

I try to open the door but it's locked.

"Shit." I mumble.

I knock lightly on the door.

"Oh hey?" Sarah opens her door with a confused look on her face.

"Can I come in please?" I ask.

"Sure. But, don't touch anything." She says.

"So?" Sarah says sitting on her bed.

I just stand there looking around the room for the pills and everything else.

"I know why your here." Sarah says.

"Yea you probably do." I say still looking around her room.

"Your not gonna find them." She said confidently.

"You shit, what'd you do with my stuff?" I get close to her face.