Behind his smile...

Chapter 46

Sarah's P.O.V.

The next day I wake up with a tear stained face. I still can't understand why Josh would do what he did.

"That dick!" I say as I rush out of bed and bang on Josh's door.

"Josh! You better fucking open this door!!!" At this point I really don't care if my parents hear me cuss.

"What do you want?" Josh angrily opened the door.

"Tell me why!" I demand.

"Why what?" He asks confused.

"About last night you dumb fuck!" I whisper yelled.

"What's a dumb... Fuck?" Rachel asked from behind us.

"Rachel, hey um... Don't say that ok?" I said as nice as I could.

"Why not? What's it mean?" She asked.

"Uhhh... It means that Santa isn't real. And only people who don't believe in Santa are called that. And if someone who believes in Santa says it, Santa won't bring you presents." I said.

"Oh no!!!! I better go write Santa an early letter explaining everything!" Rachel said and rushed back into her room.

"Ok, now tell me why you ratted me out, what'd you do?" I asked.

"Yeah right, like I'm gonna tell you." Josh said attempting to close the door but I got in his room before he could.

"Now will you tell me? Please Josh? I mean what's the worst thing that could happen now?" I asked.

"I'm not gonna tell you. It was an accident." He said that last part as a whisper but I could still hear him.

"Ok, well I'm gonna go back to my room now." I said looking at him as I walked out.

I walked into my room and looked out the window and into Matt's room.

I opened my window and he did the same.

"Hey I texted you a lot last night and you never replied." Matt said with a sad face.

"Sorry, my parents took my phone away." I said back.

"Well tomorrow's the Fourth of July, you wanna go to the park with me and watch fireworks?" He asked.

"I won't be allowed to, but sure why not!" I said.

"Cool, ok well I have to go to work now, love you babe." And with that Matt closed the window and I did the same.

I should see when I work next. Never mind. I don't fell like it. Who cares if I get fired, I don't really care anymore.

I sat in my room all day doing nothing. Literally nothing, I didn't have my phone or computer so what's the use? I did have smokey though, so that was the only highlight until he left my room.

When it got dark out I went downstairs to get food and then brought it back upstairs.

I saw some distant fireworks on the horizon so I watched some of those.

"I can't wait for tomorrow." I said to myself.

"Me too!" I heard Matt say

"Oh hey, how was work?" I asked.

"Fine, how was your day?" He asked.

"Fucking boring." I sighed.

"Could I come over and make your night more lively?" Matt winked.

"Can I come over there instead?" I asked.

"Won't you get in trouble?" Matt asked.

"Cute, but no. I've been in my room all day and no ones come to check on me, I think I'll be fine." I said climbing out the window.