It's us against the world

19 - apology

At about 3 in the morning, I wake up and rush straight to the bathroom, which was a bit of a struggle as Leah's arms were locked together. I throw up viciously which wakes Leah up too. She sits up and calls out to me, trying to work out where I am. She rushes into the bathroom to hold my hair away from my face and rub my back.

She tells me "let it all out my love, you're alright I'm here for you."

I stop throwing up so I relax by sitting down next to the toilet. I wipe my mouth on my sleeve and burst out into tears.
She pulls me into a deep, meaningful hug, still rubbing my back and says "hey my love, its ok. What's the matter?"
Through tears I tell her "im sorry Leah. I'm sorry I woke you up. I'm sorry for throwing up. I'm sorry you have to look after me. I'm sorry for ruining your life. I-I- I'm just sorry for everything."
She responds "my love, your not ruining anything. I love you so so much and I'm not looking after you because Jonas told me to, its because I want to. Don't be sorry for things you cant control, its my choice alright."
I look up at her "you really mean that?"
She smiles "of course I do. Come on lets get you back to sleep, you can lay in, in the morning because we aren't leaving till later."

I stand up and, with the support of Leah, I get back into bed. I am shivering a lot so Leah holds me tightly and tucks the blankets in closer to me to keep me warm. I close my eyes and I drift off to sleep slowly as she strokes my hair. I feel butterflies in my heart as I try not to smile too much.

I am woken up in the morning by a loud knock on the door. I groan and turn away from the door, hiding under the covers. Each gets the door and my nose is instantly flooded with flavour. I peek out from under the covers and see Leah has two plates of food in her hands. She sits down on the bed, near me, so se can wake me up.

She quietly says whilst stroking my face "Jessy, I've got you your favourite. Waffles."

I slowly lift the covers off my face and see Leah grinning a me with a plate of waffles in her hands to give to me. I sit up and take the plate from her as she sits down in the bed next to me so she can eat her food too.

As I take my first bite of food, I ask her "Le, what's the time?"
Then quickly add "oooh this food is so nice, thank you for buying it for me ba- Leah."
She smiles at me and replies "its 9:30 my love, and don't worry, you can call me babe, I don't mind."

I weakly smile at her but I feel ears forming a layer I my eyes and I start to sniffle.

Leah notices so she asks "what's wrong my love?"
I look up at her and start to seek tears rolling down my cheek so I cry even more. I feel my head fall onto Leah's shoulder as she strokes it with her thumb.

I continue crying and say "im sorry Leah. I don't know why im crying, im probably just being childish, I don't even know why you like me. I'm such a baby."
Straight away Leah shoots back "hey, hey, hey, don't talk like that about yourself. You are perfect the way you are and you know I love you to bits and there's nothing you can do to change that. Take your time, you don't have to explain anything to me if your not ready my love."
I sit back up, wiping my tears away with the back of my hands and say "no Le, its ok. I need to tell someone, I want to tell you."
I take another bite of my waffle, then turn to look at her an continue "I think its just because im missing my friends and my parents,"
I blink away some tears "im not used to being away from them for so long."
Leah rubs my back for a second or two while I eat my waffle and replies "but you've got me and Beth and Viv and Katie and Frida and-"
I cut her off "yes I know that and I love all of you but I just miss my home Le. I am still a baby really."
She chuckles "ok my love, finish up your waffles and I will try and figure something out for you."

I smile at her and give her a gentle hug before finishing off my breakfast. I tell her that I am going for a shower before we leave to go home, so she clears up our plates and puts them on the side whilst we get ready.

I get in the shower but Leah forgets that I am there and walks in on me naked, and facing the wall. I turn around and see that Leah is standing at the door with a jaw-dropped look on her face, so I blush at her.

I say to her, as she is still looking at me, "you know its rude to stare Leah."
She smiles at me, taking her top off in the process so she can join me.
I add "what do you think your doing Miss Williamson?"
She jumps in next to me, the shower so small our thighs were touching, and she says "im joining you, what else would I be doing?"
I smirk at her and reply "ok fine, but no funny business, im still knackered from last night and I need some more sleep. We can maybe, just maybe, do it tonight if im still not too tired."
She kisses the back of my neck, trying to get me to change my mind realising that I'm too stubborn for that and says "fine, ill hold you to that,"
Then she adds "but at least let me wash your hair for you my love? Please?"
I smirk and say quietly "ok my simp queen, anything for you."
She chuckles at me and says "what was that my love?"
I quickly shoot back "Nothing Leah, you can do it though, if you really want."

I let her wash my hair and smile as she does it. Her warm hands massaging my scalp and our bodies so close together, I could feel her butterflies fly though her stomach, as well as mine.

She starts to move her hands down from the back of my head to down my neck and to my back.

"Leah, what are you doing?" I ask confused.

I hear a small giggle from behind and instantly realise, she's doing something she shouldn't. She continues to move her hands but this time moving them from my back and to my chest. She really is something else. That naughty little shit. Well, she would be a big shit with the amount of legs she's got. She is too tall.
"Leah?" I question
"Yes..." she giggles in response.

Before i have a chance to ask my question, i am answered. Not with words, with actions from this very naughty girl.
She squeezes my boobs, causing me to let out a sweet moan.
"Leah, no. We said later."
She removes the very wet hair from behind my neck and begins to softly kiss it.
"Leah..." i whisper, trying to not moan her name. As soon as i do that, there's no turning back.

She rests her head on my shoulder, whispering into my ear "i never said later, that was only you."
I can feel her grin and begin to bite my earlobe, hoping to change my mind.
Unfortunately for her, i did not want to have sex with her in the shower. I gently push her off my shoulder, declining her subtle offer to fuck me.

I tell her, staring straight into her eyes "Leah, i will not have sex with you right now. Im tired and, quite frankly, i do not want to do it in the shower."

She frowns.

"I'm sorry" i apologise to her, "later."
I give her a quick kiss before exiting the shower and wrapping a towel around me, to stop admirers.

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A/N: sorry, i feel bad for you guys (not hehe)
I swear, soon. They will be happy
Anything else you want to see in their relationship?? Just questions for my dear readers xx
I got a very lovely new Arsenal jumper and yes, i will be living in it, like i do every football bit of clothing i get hehe xx
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