It's us against the world

30 - "sorry Le"

In the morning I wake up to my alarm, im grumpy today, why?
I go and get in the shower and sort myself out before training and I see that I have started my period.

"For fucks sake. Not fucking today!"

I kick my bin over.

I put a pad in and get changed into my training gear, still mad I got my period.

I go downstairs, very clearly in a mood and not happy with life so Leah jokes "hey, why so grumpy?"

She wraps her arms around my waist, resting her head on my shoulder and says "cmon, cheer up. I thought me were having a fresh start today, no grumpiness."

I brush her hands off of me and walk away.

She adds "ok fine, honestly just trying to lighten the mood a bit. Jeez."

I roll my eyes at her then go and get a slice of toast for breakfast.

We make our way to training and I sit in the back by myself, still with a face while Leah goes in the front, probably slightly nervous to be near me at all.

If looks could kill.

I have a face on me the whole way while Leah and Beth are laughing and making jokes about everything they could.

I wasn't really listening, I was too in my own head to listen to them.

Once we got parked up Beth nods at Leah, indicating something I don't understand, I don't care anyway, and Beth jumps out of the car, sprinting to find everyone and warn them about me.

Meanwhile, Leah turns around to look at me and asks cutely "why is my little one so moody today?"

She goes to hold my hand but I just hit it away, she acts hurt but I know she isn't so I reply with a massive tone "Leah! Stop! Just leave me alone!"

She looks physically sad "sorry, I thought you needed me to be there for you when you were in any type of mood? Isn't that what girlfriends do for each other? Always there for the other person?"

I reply, clearly pissed off "yeah? Well you thought wrong. I don't need you."

She turns away quite upset by my words so I add, slightly calmer than before but not nearly as calm as normal "Le, its nothing personal okay. I just don't need people to see me when I'm like this.
I don't want to be known for this. I do need you as my girlfriend but not right now okay."

I get out the car and proceed to head to training with a plastered happy face on.
I walk over to the team on the training field but I stay silent at the back of the group, not knowing if I spoke if I would shout at them.

Best not find out.

We train for an hour or so, doing passing drills, lucky for me I'm not with Leah or Beth so I can't take my anger out on them and potentially injure them.

We are about to start a possession game when my stomach starts to send flashes of pain through it and I can no longer deal with the pain by myself.

I go up to the nearest person to me, Lotte, and ask calmly "hey Lotts, you wouldn't happen to have any paracetamol with you?"

She replies with a smile "no I don't sorry, but I think Leah has some with her. She always has a pack handy."

I nod "oh, okay. I'll go ask her now then."

I walk up to Leah, careful not to scare her away and not to shout at her.
She is standing alone, contemplating her life.

I take a deep breath, tap her on the shoulder from behind and she turns around.

I ask her with a small smile on my face, "hey Le, Lotts said you have some paracetamol, do you have any?"

She looks at me a couple seconds, thinking on what to say and answers "yeah, I do. Come with me."

I walk with her to her bag in silence, neither of us wanting to bring up what happened a few hours ago.

I decide I want to "look Le, I am really sorry. I didn't mean to make you upset."

She replies still slightly upset "its fine, I'm fine. I get it you were moody. Just leave it."

I reply to her, realising her tone that she is still genuinely upset about the situation, "yeah but its not really fine. I was out of order. Let me explain please?"

She nods, wanting to hear for my apology, so I continue "well, I started my period this morning, so that's probably why im a bit moody and its making my tummy hurt so that adds to it and I know that's not a good excuse but-"

We reach her bag just as tears well up in my eyes so Leah hugs me gently as she knows I am still in a bit of pain.

I add still embraced in her hug "I'm really, truly sorry Leah.
I didn't mean to get angry with you, and I didn't mean to take my anger out on you. It just makes me like this sometimes I guess."

I swallow my tears "I'll make it up to you if you want? Later? I will do anything just for you Leah, just to show how truly sorry I am for being moody at you."

She gives me some paracetamol to take and replies "oh my little one, you should've told me, I could've helped you instead of you keeping it all inside and taking it out on your bin.

Yes, I saw you kick your bin this morning, that was quite a bashing. You should really apologise to it."

I laugh still with tears as she continues "and don't worry about making it up to me its fine, I can get moody sometimes like that too when I'm on my period."

I smile at her "thanks Le, I love you."

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A/N:
Angry but resolved within a few hours <3
I swear periods are so shit tho, why were they even made 🙄
Imagine having a gf who cares this much for you... (i mean i wish for a gf but its ok for now 😂 😭)
Sorry I didn't update last night, I kinda fell asleep 😂
Suggestions???
Have a good day xx
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