addeleworth [Scarian Royalty AU]

Movement

Move #1

Take my brain.
Eat my heart out.
Boil me in your love.
Take this body of whom you fell in love with.

Leave me to rot in the snow.
Then come visit me in spring,
When the ice has melted,
Take what remains of it and feed it to the Sun.

Worship my body like a God,
Take little parts of it and refuse to let go.
And if I die one day,
Look for me in the snow.

Move #2

I can't recall when my tears turned into blood,
I can't say when I lost my touch,
I can't remember when voices in my mind turned into my thoughts...

Insanity is freeing,
I'm so so lost.

I can't tell the difference between happiness and hurt,
I can't feel the love for me you felt,
I can't escape your nails digging into my skin,
I can't smile while knowing about the world both of us live in.

I can't say I'm free,
Even tho,
Insanity is freeing.

Move #3

I look at you like I know you,
You look at me like you know me too.

I see the way you look at him,
The way you won't view me.

I catch you glancing around the room,
Lying to yourself that you love me too.

We both know he tries to escape the pain by loving someone who isn't you.
He fell in love with someone new but I'm just another guy that looks like you.

Move #4

I want to feel love,
I want to feel alive again.
I want to feel your touch while I abandon you in despair.

You wore a thousand faces just to hide your own,
You said I tried to run from you,
Leave you dripping in the blood of our own.

I made a life for you, but you chased the moon.
I found someone else to replace you.

You weren't the one for me,
But somewhere in the peace, I wanted you to be.
You were my never-ending thought that wouldn't let me sleep.
I once found a home in you,
And I felt like I can let you in too.
Forever is not enough to stare into your eyes,
Sometimes your laugh reminds me the sound of passing time...

I just want to ask you,
Why wouldn't you leave me alone?
Why wouldn't you let me drown in tears of my own?

Because you had something I didn't.
You had chaos and life following you around,
You had that look in your eyes that made me stop in my tracks.
You were an old soul with a vintage heart and wonder for life.
And yet you managed to be a mess,
You caught me in your web of lies.

I never lied to you!
All I told you was a harsh truth!
All the things that I said were only to save you from hurt!

I never asked to be saved.
I want to embrace life in all of its pain.
Maybe it would've been easier to just forget you but...
There was a myriad of places I want to take you to.
I wanted to-

I didn't lie!
What I did,
I did it for us!

You did it for you...

No!
And you know that's the truth!
I wanted to save you from monsters that all of them still are!

Then why would you leave me alone?
Why would you push me to the edge of insanity alone?

Fine...
Make me your villain.
Oh, please!
Twist my words and make me the problem of everyone that you can see.

I would burn the world for you,
I would let you leave me in despair.
I would love to make you feel alive again,
I would love to follow you to the end,
Of in loop stuck world.
I would still love to be yours even after all of this time.
I would love to be yours if you would be mine...

The world moves on,
And you should too.

Move #5

I wish I could say things I wanted to.
You a long time ago promised to meet me in the clouds.
Oh, how foolish of me to believe you.
I think somewhere, maybe,
There exists a world in which I don't say my last goodbye to you.

I walk on the grass you fed,
I feel the ghost of your hand,
I hear the sound of your voice,
Just like you're still there.

All the memories of you come back when I look at you,
Six feet apart.
Only six more feet to meet you.
Only one more hole to dig before I can join you.
Only one more rope to braid,
Until I feel you.