🔞I May be Falling in Love // Hwang Hyunjin🔞

🖤Chapter 60🖤

The sudden movement of a body besides me startles me awake. My eyes adjust to the bright room, and I realise I'm in Harley's room. All of last night's memories come flooding back as I realise it wasn't all a dream. I turn to my side to look at Harley, but an intense headache pulses through my head. 'It must be from all the crying,' I reason. I fully turn to face the boy, taking in his beauty that I have clearly overlooked. His face is still slightly puffy, but he will always look like a prince, even on his worst days.

I roll onto my back and sigh, knowing that today will be a long one. Harley and I must discuss everything; he has to start at the beginning, and I must, of course, tell him everything about Felix. We need to talk about everything with the group, especially why no one told me about anything when if we had all pitched in, we could have prevented this situation entirely.

As I relax my body and try to sleep again, I try not to get angry or let my anxiety take over my thoughts.

I end up just staring at the ceiling, letting my mind wander with 'what ifs'. Harley was clearly drunk last night, so there's a chance he won't remember me knocking on the door and will believe we slept together.

I don't want him to think that, so I carefully get out of bed, tip-toeing out of his room and into the kitchen. I decide to make something for breakfast to help Harley's potential hangover, so I make avocado on toast.

Harley stumbles into the kitchen, his feet dragging along the tiles, and he groans while holding his hand to his head, just as I'm adding some salt to the toast for a finishing touch of flavour. I rush to the medicine cabinet to get some pain relievers and a glass of water, and Harley looks at me puzzled.

"H-Hey, I made you s-some breakfast." I say softly, stuttering my sentence.

"Thanks." He responds by walking up to the kitchen island and settling into one of the stools opposite me. He swallows the pills and takes a few bites of his toast, leaving us in a deadly silence.

"We really need to talk about everything." I sigh, not wanting to have this conversation, but it has to be done.

"You start, tell me about Felix, right from the beginning." His eyes don't meet mine, instead they focus on the food entering his mouth.

Before I speak, I take a deep breath "I promise I didn't see Felix that way when I was with you. After we ended things, I left and stayed with my father; Felix happened to be staying in the same area as well." I look at Harley's face for any kind of expression, but there is none.

"Continue." He mumbles lowly, almost frightening me.

"We did end up sleeping together, and he confessed his love for me, but I never said anything back because I wasn't ready." I add, taking a deep breath and looking down at my fidgeting hands. "Now tell me everything, including why Cole always pushed me away from you, how I ended up with Felix, and why no one ever told me anything."

"Cole never wanted us together because of what happened; he knew you'd be hurt, so he tried from the beginning to make you dislike me." Harley raises his voice and exhales a frustrated sigh.

"Our fights were clearly caused by my frustration; I was happy with you, but whenever it felt too good to be true, I freaked out and ruined things. When we finally ended things because I 'cheated,' I tried to get everyone to push you away from me so you could be happy, but I had no idea you and Felix would end up together. Felix liked you from the start, and I'm guessing he used our toxic relationship to get closer to you, knowing you'd fall for him after we broke up. Everyone was trying to keep you safe rather than harm you."

Harley looks right through me, tears streaming down his cheeks, but not with an angry intent.

"I'll talk to Felix, and then you should invite everyone over so we can talk about it all together. There will be no more secrets." I say sternly, holding back my tears as I reach into my pocket to grab my phone.

I call Felix as I walk back into the bedroom.

"Audrey? I've been so worried! Is e-everything okay?" He responds, his tone tinged with concern.

"I'm okay. I've been with Harley, I know everything." My bottom lip trembles as I begin to sob. "How could you use Harley's situation as a way to get to me?"

I hear soft whimpers on the other line, "I was never meant to hurt either of you and I-I never took it as an advantage. I f-fell in love with you, Audrey."

The only sound in the room is our sobs; I feel terrible for Harley and like an idiot, but I also believe Felix. I know he is a genuine and kind person, and everything he does is motivated by love.

"Let me talk to Harley about this; we are inviting the group around so I can know about everything and set a new rule of no more secrets." I sigh, regaining control of my breathing and whimpers

"I-I'm sorry."

I'm unable to respond because my mind is flooded with emotions. I don't like shutting Felix out, but I need time to think right now. I don't want to rush back into Harley's arms and resume our happy relationship right away. I still harbour feelings for Felix, and my feelings for Harley have not faded.

I hang up the phone, wipe my tears, and return to Harley. He's sitting on the couch, staring blankly at the wall.

"I-I just got off the phone with Felix." I stutter, walking up to sit besides him.

Harley turns to face me, noticing my puffy tear-stained face. "How did it go?"

"He said he didn't use our breakup as an advantage and that he fell in love with me." I explain. Both of us share an awkward silence; that's when I decide to ask a question that has been held hostage within my mind.

"Harley, who was that girl you were with during Christmas?"