Fragile or not? - SKZ FanFic

26

Sorry?

'Minji,
We're really sorry about this thing. You must understand that we did it for your safety. We thought about telling you so many times but in the end, we decided not to. We know you must be feeling betrayed. Is there a way we can fix this? We know you were hurt by our actions but please, forgive us. It won't erase the fact we hid a big thing like this but we thought it was the best way. In the end, it wasn't. Let us talk it through. We'll give you as much time as you need until you're ready to confront.
Sincerely sorry, Han and Jeongin.'

Continuing to stare at the words I was confused.
What should I do?
I know I won't be able to do this.
I know I won't be able to stay away from them for long.
I can forgive them but still, I'm hurt.
I can only imagine what could've happened to them while working underneath the surface like this.
Laying down I tried to clear my mind a little.
That's when something crossed my mind.
Hyunjin.
Wasn't I supposed to hang out with him today?!
Saviour.
This way I will be away from them.
I should text him.

-Hyunjin are we hanging out today?-

A huge urge to see him appeared.
Remembering how I felt when we were on that trip everything seemed better.
Maybe his presence cheers me up.
Finally, I got the notification.
Picking it up I pray it's him.
No of course not.
There's only one option left.
Draw.
That's what I did until I got the message from him.

-Yeah. Are you free at 12 to meet up at this cafe?-

He sent me the address and it was maybe 25min away.

-Yes, I'm free. See ya then.-

Excitement is building up in me more and more.
Why am I feeling like this?
Minji calm down.
Is it going to be awkward if I draw him something?
Not caring about it I start making some separate drawings of flowers, animals, and scenery.
I hope he'll like it.

Various shapes were connected on the paper resembling art and a story.
When you observe art you're able to see each step, breath, thought, and motion it took to create the artwork.
Art can be displayed in so many ways.
People are art themselves.
All of the tears, sweat, words, thoughts, smiles, feelings, blood, pain, and love it takes to make people who they are.
If you truly want to know each action that made the story of theirs you must make a big effort to reach and connect those strings until it becomes art.
This might be a long process but wonderful art takes time.
I wanted to know the story of Hyunjin.
At least, to me, he diverted from others.
Unique art that I'm just getting to know.

My lungs reached for air but I didn't let them.
I need to get there in time.
There's no way I can let Hyunjin slip out of my hands.
The reason I am late, is them.
Just when I was about to walk through the front door they appeared and I had to hide in the bathroom.
There is no way I will be facing them today.
To my bad luck, they took so much time walking to the student dorms.
Han and Jeongin were constantly discussing something which I wanted to eavesdrop on but I couldn't.
When I got my chance I run with all my strength in me.
Right now I am running and bumping into people.
I hope they understand.
All I cared about was to feel happiness and love.
This is what I craved more than anything.
Every single day I'm bothered by the thought of anyone truly liking me.
So many what if's pass my mind every now and then.
The insecurities built by my parents were major.
I tried getting rid of them, but maybe only now I am able to work on that.
Still, I need someone to brighten my day.
Right now, not even Han or Jeongin can do that.
My will to see him was stronger than the pain in my body and mind right now.
He can erase all of that with just one smile.
Clouded with thoughts in my mind the sight I wanted to see so badly was in front of me.
The cafe Hyunjin wanted to meet up at.

Taking a few deep breaths to calm myself down it was already 12:14 pm.
The name of the cafe was nicely standing out above the doors, "Magnate."
When I got in, the luxury of it surprised me.
Everything was sleek and elegant.
The atmosphere is completely different from the outside.
In one corner I saw a hand moving only to be greeted by his face.
The way I smiled so quickly surprised me.
Walking over his face was bright and joyful which immediately fixed my mood.
"Hey, Minji!"
"Hey back, Hyunjin. Sorry, I'm late."
I am so happy to be here with him.
"No worries. Do you like this place?"
Looking around I take in the interior.
For me, this seemed a little too luxurious.
The chandeliers lightened the space while the leather furniture accepted the shines.
"Yeah, it's very elegant."
A chuckle came from his mouth.
"Even if it looks expensive the prices are nothing like that. Very affordable."
After he said that the waiter came asking us for our orders.
"Welcome, what would you like to order?"
I can say, I was flustered by the handsomeness of the waiter.
Looking at Hyunjin I focus on choosing my drink.
"I would like a Caramel Vanilla latte, please."
Hyunjin flips a few more pages until he finds what he wanted.
"I will take the same and this chocolate ice cream cake. Thank you."
We exchange bows and I'm alone with him again.