memories ~ elmax ~

pt.2

max's pov:

i slowly opened my eyes, but immediately covered my my face with my arm. "maxine!!" i heard a man call out. i slowly moved my arms to see the man's face, and it was a doctor..? i looked around the room feeling confused and not remembering anything. "wh- where am i!?" i asked him trying to sit up. "no no! don't sit up- stay laying down." the doctor told me immediately rushing to me, stopping me from sitting up. "maxine, do you remember anything?" he asked me. "n-no.." i mumbled whole i shook my head. "who's maxine..?" i asked him. his eyes widened a little as he spoke. "you don't know who maxine is?" he asked me. i shook my head no.

"you're maxine. that's your name.." he told me. when he told me that i immediately felt even more confused. i didn't recognize that name at all. "where am i? what's going on?" i asked him. "you are in the hospital, you were in a car accident." he answered my quetion. "what!? when!? why don't i remeber that!?" i asked him feeling panicked. "we weren't one hundred percent sure on this before, but that part of your head you hit in the accident, was your hippocampus." he explained to me. "hippoc- what?" i asked him, not understanding a word he just said.

"hippocampus, it's the part of your head the stores you memory's. and from what i'm seeing you hit your head just hard enough to cause memory loss." he told me. "what!? for how long?" i asked him trying to sit up again. "maxine- lay back down! and it could be for a couple hours, to a couple years," he explained to me. "and in some cases, forever." he added. once he explained all of that i could feel my heart drop and an over whelming feeling of anger and confusion. why did this have to happen to ME?

what did i do wrong for this to happen? suddenly another quetion filled my mind. "was i alone in the car accident?" i asked him. "from what i remember you came in with your family. your mom, dad, and brother." he told me. "are they still here? what happened to them?" i asked him. "they were only in the hospital for about a week or two, they were no where as near hurt as you." he explained to me.

"what!? only a week or two? how long as it been!?" i asked him. "the car accident was two months ago.." he told me. "maxine you were in a two month coma." he explained to me with a serious face. i could feel my heart drop even more, but pound against my chest. there's no fucking way this is real. this just has to be a sick prank right? i didn't remember anything yes- but i would recognize my own name! plus maxine is a fucking ugly name.

"i'm going to go get a nurse to notify your family that you are awake." the doctor told me before leaving the room, leaving me all alone. my eyes drifted throughout the hospital room, and everything was so bright. another thing i noticed is there were no decorations. no flowers, balloons, get well cards. i know im gonna sound like a spoiled bitch but are people not supposed to leave things like that? does nobody really care about me?

the doctor came back into the room, and spoke. "maxine-"
"if my name is maxine just call me max then." i told the doctor cutting him off from his sentence. "okay.. max, your family is on the way to visit you." he told me. instead of feeling happy or excited i felt dread. what if i didn't want to see these people? they obviously didn't care about me- so therefore why should i care about them?

"i have to go check up on some more patients- do you have any further questions i can answer?" he asked me. "yeah.. who the fuck am i?" i mumbled staring down at the ground. he sighed and opened up a drawer and pulled out some papers. "here's some information about you. your mom had to fill that out to sign you into the hospital. you can take a look at it." he explained to me before leaving the room.

i took a deep breath and looked down at the sheet.

name: maxine elizabeth mayfield
current age: seventeen
gender: female
reason to sign in: car accident
date of birth: 07/12/71
legal guardians: Susan Mayfield, Neil Hargrove

i continued to read all of this information over and over again. i didn't recognize any of it. i didn't know my birthday, my age, my full name. nothing.

i don't know who the fuck i, i don't remember anything or recognize any of the information on this peice of paper. everything just made me so confused and angry. why did this have to happen to me? why couldn't all of this happend to anyone else? why me? am i a bad person? am i a good person?

WHO THE FUCK AM I?

all of these thoughts just made me want to scream and smash everything i can see.

i am just so fucking angry and confused.