memories ~ elmax ~

pt. 29

el's pov:

i ran into the waiting room and slightly pushed past a nurse that was staring at the tv. i felt bad for pushing her, but i needed to wake up my mom. "guys guys!! wake up wake up!" i yelled as i shook my mom awake. she opened her eyes and gasped. "what? what is it!? why are you waking me up!?" she asked in a panicked tone. "max is awake! she's gonna be okay!" i told her not being able to hold back my smile. "she's awake!?" mom asked sitting up. "yes!" i told her. she stood up and grabbed her stuff, and next i ran over to will. "will! wake up max is awake!" i told him as i shook him awake. he groggily opened his eyes and looked around confused. "wh-"
"get your lazy ass up max is awake!" i told him as i pulled him up. both him and mom followed me into her room, and i pushed open the door. there she was laying on the bed, blankly staring at the ceiling. she looked over at us and half smiled. "hi.." she mumbled clearly in pain.

moms eyes widened, and she mumbled something about getting the nurse, and left the room. me and her made eye contact, and i couldn't help but smile. in that moment i just wanted to kiss her so damn badly. i walked over to her bed, and sat down at the end of it. will awkwardly stood there not knowing what to do or say, before he sighed and spoke. "look, i'm sorry i was an asshole to you. i didn't mean for it to get this far.." he mumbled an apology. she blankly stared at him but spoke. "this was not your fault. it's just mine." she mumbled. will awkwardly smiled and kept standing, as he fidgeted with his sleeve. mom came rushing back in with the same nurse from a few minutes ago, and she rushed over to max.

"how are you feeling? do you feel confused or any dizziness?" the nurse asked her as she checked her vitals again. "no- my arms just hurt..," she mumbled. "and i'm tired and my head also really hurts and i feel really weak." she added. "that is expected, now for productions we need to take you to the suicide ward and keep you there for a few days in order to reassure you won't attempt to self harm or attempt suicide again. we just need your guardians permission first," she explained. she looked at max for the first time, and her eyes widened and she looked confused. "i-i'm sorry, i will be right back.." she excused herself quickly as she rushed out of the room.

max looked beyond embarrassed, but also sad and upset at the same time. i knew what she was feeling- well i didn't know.. but i could imagine..
will looked uncomfortable and tired, and mom just looked worried. i didn't know how i looked because their was no mirror, but i can't imagine i looked as worried as i felt.

after a few minutes of silence, the nurse came back into the room with a cop. everyone of us looked at him confused why he was there. "what is going on?" max asked as she tried to sit up. she looked at me with a confused and panicked expression. "ma'am, are you maxine's legal guardian?" the cop asked. mom stopped chewing on her nails like she always did when she was anxious, and looked over at max, and then back to him. "uhm, why?" she asked. "because maxine is a missing child, she has been missing for over a week." the cop explained. as soon as those words left his mouth, my heart started to race. no.. no fucking way they can know that. if they know that max has been missing for over a week, then they find her, she will have to go back home. no.. i can't lose max again.
i can't loose her again.

i felt max grab my hand and squeeze it as mom looked over at me with a confused and pissed off expression. "w-what!? that can't be right!? el what is going on?" she asked me.
"she's not missing- she's right here. she's with us- she's safer with us-" i tried to explain before he cut me off. "i'm sorry maxine- you are still a minor. you legally have to be with your legal guardians untill you are 18." he explained. i felt the grip max had on my hand tighten and i knew she was freaking out as much as i was. "no- you can't make me fucking go back there. i'm not fucking going back there!" max yelled at them. "we need to tell your parents where you are,-"

"isn't there something we can do!? she clearly doesn't want to go home! mom can't you be her legal guardian?" i asked her cutting off the cop. "no- el she has to go home. if i knew max was in this much trouble i would of never let her stay with us." mom explained. "if her parents give permission can she stay here in hawkins?" i asked the cop. "uh- technically bu-"
"then do that! max needs to stay with us!" i practically yelled. "no el! i'm not letting her stay with us any longer!" mom said, rasing her voice. "but-" i protested before getting cut off by the cop.
"okay- ma'am," the cop said looking over at mom. "how about me and you have a proper conversation about this outside?" he asked her. she nodded and followed him outside the room, and the nurse and will followed leaving me and max alone.

i looked over at her, and she looked absolutely terrified. "they can't make me go back there, can they..?" she asked me in a shaky voice. "no.. they can't.. i won't let them. i can't loose you, i need you." i told her as i grabbed her hand with my other hand. "i will always need you max, always." i told her with a trembling voice.

i could feel my heart pounding inside my chest, and butterflies swarm my stomach as me and her made eye contact again. god i don't know what about this girl is so- addicting..

i could feel myself leaning in closer and closer to her face, when i heard her wisper my name.

"el?" she wispered.

"yeah..?" i wispered back.

"can i kiss you..?" she asked me.

i couldn't help but smile and nod.

i leaned in, and it felt like fireworks were exploding in my stomach as our lips made contact once again. i just wanted this to last forever and never stop, never go away. i just wanted max and only max.

i felt her pull me closer with her right hand, and place her left hand on my waist. i never want this kiss to ever end.