memories ~ elmax ~

pt. 26

el's pov:

sirens were blaring, red and blue lights were flickering. my parents were running around in a panic. johnathan and will we're confused.
i was crying my eyes out and hyperventilating.

max was being carried out on a stretcher and being put in the back of the ambulance.

"el what's going on!? nobody will tell me what the fuck is happening or why she's being taken to the hospital!?" will asked me as he walked up to me.
i couldn't answer him, all i could do was cry. "mom what's going on!?" will asked as mom approached us. she stayed silent, and rubbed her forehead. "SOMEBODY! what the fuck is going on!?" will shouted. "YOU WILL! because of all the fucked up shit you said about her being a phyco and shit like that she tried to kill herself okay!?" i screamed at him though sobs. "her heart stopped beating for 3 minutes when i found her.." i told him as a tear rolled down my cheek.

he stayed silent, but sat down next to me. after sitting there silently for a few minutes, he wrapped his arm around me. "i'm so sorry jane." he mumbled. "im gonna ask grandma sara to take care of johnathan for a while- do we have any idea where max's parents are el? i'm still so confused why she is even staying with us or where she even came from?" mom asked me. "i think her parents are somewhere in indiana, she ran away and i told her she could stay with us.." i confessed to her while wipping away my tears.

"INDIANA? el that is hours away how the hell did she get to california!?" she yelled. "I DONT KNOW OKAY!?" i yelled back. "okay i'm sorry- just everyone take a deep breath. do you know her parents names?" she asked me. "we can't call them! she's gonna be in trouble if her parents know where she is." i tried to explain. "el, max might not make it out alive. we don't even know if she's alive! we need to contact her parents!" she told me.

just hearing that made me sob even harder. the fact that she might not even be alive. if i just told her i liked her, if i just told her the truth. if i just didn't leave her alone tonight,

she could still be alive right now.

she would be with me right now.

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i was blankly staring off into space. i hated being at hospitals, it just reminded me of death and bad luck. my eyes were red and swollen from crying so much, and the thought that this is all my fault wouldn't leave my mind. "el, the nurses are asking who her care takers are. please, i need to know her parents names. do you know her parents names?" mom asked me, sitting down beside me. "please just say you're her care taker mom." i mumbled holding back tears. "what is so bad about her parents? why did she run away?" she asked me.
i looked over to mom, and felt like i was gonna puke just thinking about all the things her family has done to her that she told me about. "her parents are shitty okay? it's not safe for her to live there. if she lived there she would be dead anyways. please mom, say you are her care taker." i begged her.

she sighed, and rubbed her forehead. she was clearly as stressed as i was. "fine. but i could get in a lot of trouble for this, you know that el? just because jim is a cop, doesn't mean he can get me out of this, okay?" she told me. "thank you mom."
i thanked her, reaching out and hugging her. "of course honey, please feel better." she told me, pulling away from the hug and standing up, walking over to the nurse at the front counter.

will walked over to me and sat down where mom was sitting. "jane, max is gonna be alright. you need to believe that." he told me. "no she isn't will! she was in cardiac arrest for 3 in a half minutes! she is barley alive..," i told him as more tears ran down my cheeks uncontrollably. "they had to put her in a fucking medical induced coma!"
i continued as more tears ran down my cheeks and i sobbed uncontrollably.

sure i have only known max for barley a week, but at the same time..

i feel like i'm falling in love with her.

i can't loose her before she knows how much i love her.

she needs to know i love her.

because,

yeah..

i do love her.