memories ~ elmax ~

pt. 6

max's pov:

as i opened up my eyes, i slightly squinted again. was my room in the moring always this bright!? the hospital room i stayed in even had better and thicker curtains then the ones in this bedroom. i started to shake from the cold as a gust a wind glided though out my room as my curtains flew up. "stupid shitty window.." i mumbled to myself as i grabbed one of the blankets off my bed and wrapped it around me. i looked down at my foot and slightly sighed a breath of relief. i could finally take these bandages off and walk without those crutches. i didn't need them anymore, the doctors just told me to do it, just to be safe. i reached over and started to unwrap the bandages on my foot carfully just incase it would still hurt. once i got the bandages off i immediately covered my nose, because my foot smelt really gross. "ew.. disgusting." i muttered as i stood up and gently took a step. it didn't hurt, so i'm sure it would be fine to walk normally.

i opened up my bedroom door and peeked down the hallway to where i remembered the bathroom to be. i walked down the hallway, walking slightly weird because i was not used to walking without crutches. the smell of cigarettes and smoke hit me as soon as i walked further and further down the hallway towards the bathroom. i opened the bathroom door and immediately saw my brother billy standing infront of the mirror smoking a cigarette as he sprayed on cologne that was WAY to strong. his eyes went from himself to me standing behind him and his expression changed in less then a second, it went from blank to pure anger.

he spun around to face me and anger and disgust filled his eyes as he saw me. he took the cigarette out of this mouth and began to yell. "MAXINE GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE! CANT YOU SEE THAT-"
before he could finish i immediately started to apologize. "im sorry i-"
before i could finish speaking he cut me off.
"YOU DONT INTERUPT ME MAXINE!" he yelled as he shoved me into the wall with all his strength causing a picture frame on that wall to fall onto the ground and shatter. before i could speak neil appeared out of no where and separated billy from me. "BILLY. what the fuck is wrong with you!?" he asked as he grabbed billy by the collar of his shirt. billy's eyes grew wide because neil had caught him by surprise. "it's not what it looks lik-"
"the hell it's not what it looks like!!" he yelled. neil looked down at billy's hands and scoffed.

"i thought i told you no more cigarettes?" he asked him. "i know bu-"
"IF YOU KNEW THEN WHY ARE YOU SMOKING ONE?" neil screamed at billy pushing him agaist the doorframe. billy looked down at the ground avoiding eye contact with neil. tears slightly formed in his eyes as he stuttered a response. "it won't happen again." he mumbled. "what was that?" neil asked quietly. "it won't happen again sir." he repeated himself. "good," neil scoffed as he let go of the collar of billy's shirt. "apologize to your sister." he said glaring down at me. billy looked over at me and shook his head. "im not apologizing to a dumb bitch like you maxin-"
before billy could continue neil raised his hand and swung down at billy leaving a red mark across his face.

"NEIL!" my mom yelled as she ran towards all three of us. "neil what are you doing!?" she asked placing her hand on his shoulder. "stay out of this susan!" he yelled at her brushing her hand off his shoulder. "what happened? why is billy crying?" she asked looking over to billy who had tears in his eyes. "what's happening is he's not being a man and is being a big sissy." neil told my mom. she sighed and spoke. "neil i don't think it's appropriate to call billy-"
"i know what is and is not appropriate susan. now i said stay the fuck out of this. im going to work." he scoffed pushing past my mom.

at the same second billy left the bathroom and headed towards his bedroom, slamming the door shut. my mom sighed and looked over at me with a sad smile. "are you alright maxine?" she asked me. i was visibly upset and was shaking, but i didn't want her to feel like she had to deal with me, so i just nodded. she sadly smiled again, before kneeling down and picking up some of the pieces of broken glass scattered across the floor. "go back to your room maxine." she mumbled as she piled up the pieces of glass in a small pile.
i stood there silently for a second, before obeying her wishes and going back to my room.

i slammed the door shut as i entered my room. i leaned against the door and pulled my knees up to my chest and placed my head onto my knees. god was my family always like this? i've not even been home for a full day since getting back from the hospital and this is what already is happening!? my eyes were stinging by once again no tears were falling out. right in this moment i wanted to cry, i needed to cry, but it's almost like my body forgot how to. how to express my emotions. i lifted my head up and glanced around my room once more. then it hit. it came out of no where. i was calm one minute, one minute i was feeling scared and empty. but then like a light switch something just flipped inside of me. i just wanted to scream. just scream and destroy everything that comes my way. i was just so angry.. for absolutely no reason at all.

it's like all i could see was red, i just wanted to scream. it felt like my chest was going to explode and i couldn't breathe. i glanced over and saw the old peice of junk tv on my tv stand across from my bed. with no hesitation i hit it as hard as i could. it hurt my hand, and my knuckles almost immediately became bruised and red. i spun around and held my first with my other hand. god punching a tv hurts alot more then you would think. "fuck fuck fuck.." i mumbled to myself as the pain was becoming unbearable almost immediately. i took a deep breath but it didn't help. suddenly a heard a weird nose. i spun back around and saw that my tv was now powered on. huh.. i guess it just needed a good hit?