Mafia Fate | Jeon Jungkook x OC ✔️

Chapter 39

Yeri's POV

Today was the day. The day I would have to make my choice.

Even before I was fully awake, my mind was thinking about it.

I woke up disoriented.

The man whose warmth I was used to waking up every day was not beside me anymore. The man himself felt like a stranger to me and it had happened in a matter of minutes.

I didn't go to breakfast like I usually did each morning. I just stayed in bed and contemplated about life and my situation.

What choice would I make? My mind was in a constant rush of emotions; all sorts of negative emotions.

Over thinking. Anxiety. Nervousness. Fear. Badly overwhelming thoughts.

I couldn't even think anymore. I didn't know how long I stayed sitting in bed for, but finally I got up and mustered up the courage to shower and change. I went downstairs after a while.

The maids greeted me and served me my food like they had been doing for the past so many months since I had been living here.

I was thankful to them. A lot. And I made sure they knew.

I had a hard time eating my breakfast even though it was my favorite. I sat there for a long time staring at it, trying to eat.

Finally, when I could no longer take it, I left my half eaten food and exited the mansion doors to go outside.

I spent time in the gardens which got my mind off of things. I didn't see the old gardener but I was okay with spending time in the nature by myself. I sat on the soft grass and looked around.

Flowers, plants, the sky, trees, birds, clouds.

I felt the slight breeze against my face and I closed my eyes. I heard the sweet chirrup of birds in trees, I saw the colors, the nature. I smelt the flowers and the air that smelled of nature and its riches.

And I couldn't help the smile that formed on my face. I was alive. I was living.

Even if I had to take a decision, even if I had to make a choice, I would be okay. I would know that it would be one of those paths I took. I wouldn't regret it.

Even if it hurt me, even if it killed me, I would take up my own path. A while later, my mind had eased up a little and when I went to eat lunch, I felt better than I did in the morning.

I was still anxious about what the night would hold for me and I thought about it.

I didn't block the thoughts away. I was allowed to feel. My feelings were valid. My thoughts were valid.

So, I went with the flow. I was at a point in my life where I was most likely at that crossroads the old gardener Woo had told me about.

And I had to make a choice. But whatever choice I made, it would solely be mine and it would solely be on me and for me.

As evening approached near, I walked towards my closet to pick out an appropriate outfit for tonight. Jungkook hadn't told me what kind of mission it would be. He had just told me to wear the appropriate clothes.

After looking through my closet for a while, I finally picked up an outfit that would suit whatever mission I was going on.

It was an all black outfit. Black jeans. Black turtleneck. A leather jacket, since the nights were beginning to get colder now. Black combat boots. And black fingerless leather gloves.

I walked inside the bathroom. After striping completely, I entered the bubble bath I had prepared for myself.

I didn't really need the bath. A shower would have been fine. But, I needed to kill time and there was no other way.