𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙤 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨

vape - chris

request!

POSSIBLE TW:

mentions of su*cide and addiction. if not comfortable pls skip <3.

this has been in my requests in my messages for a few months so i would feel terrible not doing it. but from now on no more requests for sensitive topics. nothing but love to the person who requested this i just don't wanna make others uncomfortable! <3.

if u are struggling and need someone to talk to, my messages are open always <3.

y/n's pov

dating a famous youtuber came with a lot of hate. and i mean a lot. people wanted you dead, people threatened you left and right, people dug into your personal life and found old information about you, people tried to find where you live, all because you were dating someone and you were happy. i have been with my boyfriend, chris, for a couple years now. before he even started youtube with his triplet brothers. but somehow, i was still the bad guy and i was still using chris for clout and money.

once their youtube career took off, the hate was really bad. i had started using pills and had gotten addicted to them, but chris helped me and i am over that now, i haven't even touched any pills in forever, besides like ibuprofen and things like that. my life was hell, for a while, and it still kind of is. every day when i logged into social media and read what people were saying to and about me, it hurt. really bad. i tried to take my life a few times due to it, but chris was there. every. single. time. and i cannot thank him enough.

i now have an addiction to vapes. not good, i know, very unhealthy, but it calms me down and distracts me from wanting to take my own life. chris doesn't know, and god knows if he found out he would literally kill me. matt and nick would too, those two are my bestest friends in the entire world besides chris. all 3 of them are there for me constantly, but this is just the one thing i do not want them finding out about. i logged into instagram today to find old information about me being posted around, so i decided to ditch school today. i didn't wanna deal with anyone. i didn't tell chris or anyone that i decided to ditch today, but oh well.

i currently had my window open, sitting on the windowsill vaping, to calm myself down. i was so distracted by the sky and how beautiful it looked, that i didn't even hear my bedroom door open. "y/n babe.. what is that?" i froze. i turned around and was met with chris, and nick and matt behind him. "i uhm.. i.." "is that a vape?" he cut me off. i looked down and sighed "yes, but chris i-" "y/n. what are you doing with a vape?" chris asked. "that's not good for you y/n," nick joined in, making me feel more ashamed of myself. "i know, but i.." i looked down. "but what, baby?" chris came over to me, and slowly took it out of my hand, and i jumped up. "no! chris, give it to me! p-please!"

"why do you need it so bad?" he looked at me. "because! that's the one thing that calms me down and distracts me from wanting to kill myself! there! you happy?!" i snapped, before i snatched it out of his hand and sat back down. "y/n i.." i cut him off. "no, i'm sorry, it's just.. after i stopped doing pills i found these and i just got addicted pretty quick, they calm me down and distract me so i don't do other stupid things, i know i shouldn't be but i don't know what else can help me.." i whispered the last part, looking down. "baby, that's why we're here.." chris said, walking back over to me. "yeah y/n, we're here to help you no matter what, you're our best friend." matt told me.

i teared up and looked at them, "baby.." chris started. "i'm just so sick of it, the constant dms i'm getting every single time i log into any social media. they want me dead, they want me to do whatever i can to be gone. they want me away from you guys, i can't handle it on my own, this is the shit that helps me and i know, it's bad and unhealthy, but i don't know how else to help myself without hurting myself, and hurting you guys. i just.. i need help.." i looked down. immediately i was brought into a group hug, and i just broke down and started sobbing. "i have an addiction to them, chris.. i need help," i sobbed into his shoulder. "shh, it's okay baby, that's why we're here.." he whispered.

"we're gonna help you get through this y/n," nick said. i pulled away from them, hitting my vape once again. "i just can't stop, it helps me, i don't know how to stop.." i wiped my tears. "and that's okay baby, remember when we helped you stop the pills? it took us a very long time, and if that's what we have to do for these too, we will, okay? anything you help you, baby.." chris said. "we're gonna get through this," he said bringing me into another hug, quickly followed by matt and nick.

i'm not sure how i feel abt this, but i hope u like it !! <3.