*:･ﾟYou Bet I Stare ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 12 - what you were

SOUSUKE
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I stare up into Kous eyes, and I wanted nothing but for him to stay. His hand grabbed my hand—the one that was setting on the side of his neck—and he softly smiled as he looked back down at me. "Can you stay here with me a little longer?" I whisper to him as he lets his forehead fall and rest against mine. I could feel his head shake, "Mitsu.. I—" My eyes open and I look right up at him. "I don't think I can.. it's just—my brother, and my sister. I haven't made any dinner for them yet, and they're probably worried sick about where I am." My feet got off of their tiptoes, and I could feel Kou detach his forehead from mine. "I just want this thing between us to last forever.. and I hate that we're so young." Kou looks at me, his eyebrows raising. "Why do you say that? The we're so young part I mean—" My face turns into a scowl. "It's like I want to be with you, but there's still so much I don't know about you. And I don't want you to have a change in interest if you do end up getting with me." I take my hands back and I shake my head. "I want what we have to not be affected by something else bigger than us, and love is a really scary thing. It's like—I know that we're friends, but that hug.." Kou watches me pace back and forth. "It's like I want more, but I'm just worried that we're taking things too quickly." I stop as I feel Kou grab either side of my face, his hands felt warm and provided as a sense of comfort.

"It's good that you're thinking that way, Sousuke.. but I can assure you that you're really the only person I want." I could see in Kous face that he was being serious about what he was saying, but I still felt like things between us were moving too quickly. "I know that this whole thing is exciting, but it's just really easy to get carried away." I frown as I look up at him. "But.. I really do love you, I'm just—" My frown turns into a feeling of frustration. "—I don't know what to do." Kou then steps closer to me, pulling me in for another hug. "It's okay, Sousuke- I don't want you to feel rushed into anything." He then looks at me. "What if I were to stay.. and—" I watch Kou ponder something before looking at me again. "We use the time to get to know each other better?" I smile a bit before shaking my head, having a change of mindset from wanting him to stay with me longer. I didn't want his family getting worried about him, especially since they'll probably already be worried since he'll be heading home with a bunch of patched up injuries.

As much as I love Kou, I can tell that he lets his feelings do all the talking for him.

"We don't have school tomorrow.. so maybe we can meet up and hang out? I feel like that would be better than you staying here and leaving your siblings worried about you." I say to him as I look up at him. I could tell that it disappointed Kou when he realized I wasn't going to give into letting him stay, but I wasn't about to deal with his older brother getting angry at him for not letting him know of his whereabouts—and getting angry at me for being the reason that he wasn't home. He then exhales and nods his head, letting me walk him to the door. He grabs the doorknob and opens the door, stepping out into the hallway. I smile and look up at him, watching him situate his staff thingy on his back. He then looks down the hallway, pointing at something non existent. "Hey—what's that?" I of course fall for his trap, looking in the direction that he was pointing. "Huh?" That's when Kou took the opportunity and gave me a kiss on the cheek. My eyebrows raised and I looked up at him, but he was already walking down the hallway before I could see his flushed face. "Text you later, Sousuke!" He waves his hand back at me before disappearing down the steps. I could feel my cheeks fill with a tint of red, and my hand gripped the door before I went back inside and closed it- locking all the locks afterwards.

He was purposely making it hard for me to no longer say no to us becoming a couple, and I knew that. The whole moment we had earlier almost pushed me over the edge; and I could feel myself almost kiss him.

On the lips.

My head shook at the thought, and I quickly found my phone so I could unblock Kous phone number; and you already know I waited around like a moron for him to give me a message.

I then noticed something on my desk, it was Kous arm band that he wore on his wrist all the time. He must've left it on my desk when he was changing into the shirt that I let him borrow since his other clothes were all messed up from that fight he told me about. I felt myself smile as I put the band back on my desk, his dorky sense of style was beginning to grow on me—just like the rest of him was.