*:･ﾟYou Bet I Stare ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 47 - rises the moon

MITSUBA
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"Do you need anything else before I go?"
My mom slowly ran her fingers through my hair as she spoke to me, preparing to head out for the day so she could go home and rest before her shift later on tonight. "No.. I'm okay, I promise." I watch her softly smile before planting a kiss on my cheek. "Alright honey, don't be afraid to call or message me if something happens—I will try my best to respond as soon as possible." "Okay, but seriously Mom.. you need your rest. You look exhausted.." "Don't worry about me Sousuke, I'm alright. I just need a little nap, that's all. You should probably take a nap yourself—it's key to the healing process." "Maybe later.. I'm expecting Kou in a little bit and I don't want to disappoint him by falling asleep before he arrives." She nods, grabbing my hand as she looks at me. "I love you Sousuke, I'll visit you when I get to work later on." "Love you too.." I give her a soft smile and watch her walk to the door. "Alright, bye bye." She softly bends her pointer finger a couple of times as a way to wave at me, and I do the same to match her energy as she left the room and shut the door behind her.

I guess it wouldn't hurt to freshen up before Kous arrival, I can't stand to let him see me like this for a second time today.

My hand dug around my right side as I tried to look for the call remote that came complementary with the sweet bed they gave me, and I grabbed the thing as soon as I found it and pressed the red button up at the top. I only really needed to see if I would be allowed to snag a shower, or if I was forbidden from doing that too.

"Yes Mitsuba-San? Do you need more blankets?" I glance over at the nurse as she softly addressed my name, and I shook my head. "No ma'am, I just wanted to ask if it would be okay for me to take a shower? I would've done it on my own, but I didn't think it would be logical for me to get up when I have this IV shoved in my arm." "Oh, yes.. I appreciate you giving me a call. Let me get this IV out so that you can do so." "Thank you.." I watch her walk over to my left side, carefully tending to the area. "This will feel a little weird, but please stay still." I scrunch my face up as I feel her pull the thing out of my arm, quickly wiping the area off before placing a covering over it. "Will you be able to get to the bathroom on your own or would you like my assistance?" "I think I'll manage, but thank you.." She bows to me and walks back to the door, opening it before looking back at me. "When you are finish with your shower, please let me know so that I can come and can tend to your IV again." "Alright, sounds good." "And be sure not to get the area too wet, it may lead to infection." I nod and get up, watching her leave and shut the door behind her.

Thank god, finally.. I feel like I've been cooped up in that bed for ages.

Once I was finished with my quick shower, I got back into my bed and took a seat before calling the nurse again. Literally seconds after I pressed the button, the door opened. "Woah, you got here fast—" I mutter as I glance over, but instead of being greeted with the nurses kind face, I was greeted with Kous.. not so kind face. "—oh.. hey." I softly mutter, my eyes following him as he walks over to me.

Now that he was here, I felt awful. We were about to discuss my fate, and ultimately decide how things will go for the rest of our lives.

Will I tap out.. or him?

"Hey." He mutters, maintaining a very monotone voice as he sits down beside me. "The nurse is on her way to put a new IV in my arm.. so let's wait until after she leaves to talk." He nods, not even wanting to look at me. "Kou..?" "Hm?" "Why won't you look at me?" I frown, scooting over to the edge of the bed and sitting so that I'm right in front of him. "I feel too guilty to look at you.." I feel myself frown more, holding my hands out to him so he can grab them. "Hey, please don't feel guilty.. I hate seeing that sorry look on your face. It makes me feel all depressed and crap."