*:･ﾟYou Bet I Stare ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 48 - i love you

KOU
—❁—

As I silently lay in bed, I keep my phone propped up against my arm as I stare at the time.

10:04 pm

I couldn't bring myself to get up, knowing that this would be this last day technically having Sousuke. I need to go pick him up.. but I just can't. I understand that I can persuade him again, but things will be so different.

Sooo.. insanely different.

My eyes move towards the hair tie that Sousuke handed me before I left for the day, and it served as a reminder of how much of a screw up I was.

Anyway, I guess I should probably go pick him up now.

I eventually sat up and put my hands over my eyes before scooting to the edge of my bed so I could get up. Would he mind if I just went in my pajamas? I can't bring myself to dress up all nice for such a terrible occasion, so surely he'll understand.

The drive from my place to the hospital wasn't all that far, so I was there in less than 15 minutes. At this rate, I could feel how empty my gut was. I wasn't ready to just walk in and tell Sousuke that it was time for us to go. This surely had to be how doctors and nurses around this place felt when they had to walk to the families of deceased patients so that they could break the terrible news to them. Hopefully Sousuke's mom is on board with this, because if not.. there will no doubt be trouble.

I reminded myself that it was room 153, second floor. I had to turn right at the directory signs and make my way all the way down. It was the only way that I could keep my mind off of literally all of this. Maybe his Mom isn't upset since he'd only have his memory wiped of me?

147.. 48.. 49–

One Hundred and Fifty Three.

My body pauses in front of the door as my fist comes up, knocking hesitantly. Sousuke almost immediately answered the door and shot his gaze right up at me. "Hey.. I'm sorry I'm so la—" My sentence was immediately cutoff by him kissing me and pulling me inside the room. "H-Hey.. wait a se—!" I felt him press me up against the closed door as he kissed me passionately once again, his hands making themselves comfortable all around my neck and face. "Relax! O-Oi, relax!" The only thing I could do was stand there as he continued to kiss me continuously, and my body tensed up in reaction to my blood pressure rising as I kissed him back. That way I didn't seem like any more of the asshole here than I already am. "Sousuke.." I mutter through one of his kisses before pulling my face away. "Wh-what the hell has gotten into you..?" My voice remained soft as I looked down at him and watched him pant. "I-I'm sorry.. it's just that.." He stares up at me as he keeps himself pressed up against my frontside. "I-I want to make the most of what little time we still have together. You were so late that we missed out on spending the day together.. a-and so I kissed you to stop myself from getting angry at you." I felt my face grow warm as he ran his fingers down my lips. "He comes out when I'm angry, so I had to regulate it." "O-Oh.. yeah, right.." I nod, growing flustered at the feeling of him examining my face up close. "Kou-kun, I'm so hungry.." He mumbles and gets on his tiptoes as he pulls my face closer down to his.

I couldn't help but get an offset feeling now. Tsukasa being mentioned already? And as soon as I get here? Sousuke would've avoided speaking of him no matter what the circumstance.. and seriously, the term Kou-kun? He's never used that shit before, so don't tell me..

"You're not Sousuke, are you?" I softly mutter down to him as he adjusts his posture. "What? You're joking with me right now, right.." My eyebrow raises. "No?" I examine him as he lets go of me and crosses his arms, sighing. "You seriously thought that creepy guy was controlling me just now all because of me stating the fact that I'm starving?" My lungs let out a quick sigh of relief as I pull Sousuke in for a tight hug. "Sorry man.. you gave me PTSD with that whole trying to eat me crap earlier." "Yeah whatever, now take me to a gas station and get me some real food. I can't eat this hospital food any longer and I mean it." "Okay okay.. yes sir. Are you all good to go? I'm not gonna get jumped my a bunch of doctors for taking you out of this place, am I?" "Nah.. my mom used some of her nurse privilege to get me released early, so I'm all good to leave this place. I was just waiting here for you to return because I had no way to reach you. You weren't answering your phone so I gave up tryin to contact you." "I'm sorry Sousuke, I was just too busy with—y'know.. overthinking this whole entire situation. Hot guy shit or whatever." "Hot guy shit my ass, now come on and treat me to a final meal before I become your worst enemy." My eyebrows narrow as he looks up at me, giving me what looked to be a fake little smile.