*:･ﾟYou Bet I Stare ･ﾟ:*

CHAPTER 36 - i miss my man

SOUSUKE
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As the sun starts to shine through the curtains and onto my face, I feel my eyebrows narrow as my eyes clench shut more tightly. Somehow, even after doing something I never do—which is staying up way past midnight—I still felt insanely energized and refreshed. A soft exhale leaves me as I bring my hands up to my eyes, trying to wipe the tiredness away and sitting up with the blanket over my legs. I roll my shoulders and arch my back, stretching before looking down at Kou as he remained asleep on his little pallet on the floor. Just looking at him reminded me of how pathetic I was acting last night, and I was hoping that he would have it all forgotten by the time he finally woke up. I then exhale and maneuver my body around to the edge of Kous bed, taking in one finally exhale of his comfy bedding before getting up. This was probably going to be the last time I get to lay in his bed for a long time, so I took in every last second that I could before forcing a start into my day.

Once I was finally up, I grabbed the hair tie off my wrist and tied my mess of hair up into a messy bun in the back of my head, then made my way to the bathroom to get ready for my day. As I looked around his small bathroom, I was immediently reminded that I had absolutely nothing to get ready with. No toothbrush, no hairbrush, and most importantly.. no clean clothes to change into. With a long and heavy exhale, I walked myself over to Kous dresser and started digging around in the drawers for something that I could change into while my clothes patiently waited to be washed in Kous laundry basket. A few drawers down, I was eventually greeted with a drawer full of that Hana girls belongings. There weren't many, but I still couldn't help but let my body get filled with that feeling of jealousy again before my palms forced the drawer closed. I felt like all those things in that drawer should be my things.. not some girls things. I still hated the fact that he just left me and went off with some other chick as a way of getting his mind off of me.

I was then reminded of the way Kou looked at me all those different times last night. I couldn't help but wonder if he looked at her just the same..

Out of pity, I instantly stopped thinking about all that bullshit before grabbing some of Kous clothes to slip into so I could go down to prepare some breakfast. The clothes that I found were just a pair of his shorts that conveniently had drawstrings and a t-shirt. It wasn't my best statement piece, but it was just going to have to work. Once I made it down to Minamotos kitchen, I scavenged around to find some ingredients to make a small breakfast, and eventually came up with some eggs and breakfast sausage to prepare since they were both things that cooked pretty quickly without having to get a bunch of dishes dirty. I eventually settled on just preparing those two things since that was all I found in Kous fridge breakfast wise. It was horrendously empty in there, and I was honestly sort of worried about it. Either he spends all of his work money on useless crap and doesn't have enough money for food, or he just likes to eat out way too much. Either way, both of those things are worrisome.

"Well look who's down here slaving away in the kitchen for a change." I'm greeted with Kous voice as I continue to break the eggs up around in the pan. "Good morning to you too.." I mutter, glancing back at him as I watch him open the small connected closet in his house that holds the washing machine and the dryer. "Is it really good though? Your vocal tone tells me otherwise.""What are you talking about? This is how I always speak." My eyebrows narrow as I hear him start the washing machine. "No it isn't—give me that—if you always spoke with attitude I wouldn't have brought you over to my house in the first place." i step aside and let him take over the cooking. "So be honest with me for once Sousuke. What's bothering you this time?" Kou looks at me for a second before looking back at the pan that has all the eggs cooking in it. "Don't tell me you're still pissed off about you know who?" "I'm not, now hurry up and finish those eggs so I can eat and go home." I cross my arms and pout against the counter space beside Minamoto. "You're pouting again, so that has to be a lie." Kou sets the spatula down that he's holding and looks at me with a soft smirk. "Don't tell me that time has also turned you into a compulsive liar.." I softly shake my head, not looking up at Kou as he turns towards me. "Well if you can't answer those questions truthfully, then can you answer this one truthfully?" My eyebrows raise in reaction to Kou grabbing my face by the chin and raising it upwards to face him. I let my eyes look right into his, his palm caressing the side of my face as I nod. "Can you at least tell me what we are right now? I know that you're trying to finish this food up so you can go home, but can you tell me that much?"