The Shadow Sholdier

Stories

„So what do you wanna know?" Bucky asks.
„Everything!" I say energic. „If it's okay for you of course.." I add.
He smiles.
„Sure. So it started when Steve became a Super Soldier and we had this mission in the Alps.." he starts to tell.

After half an hour he finished.
„Wow.."
Is all I can say.
„And now your how old?"
„103."
„And physically?"
„I don't know.. maybe like in my early 30s I guess."
„So all that happend and you still are so.. so nice and.. how did you do that?" I aks.
„Do what?"
„Keep your heart?"
He looks at me.
I'm unsure about his facial expression, he doesn't know what to answer.
„I don't know to be honest."
I can imagine how he feels.
It's terrifying.
„And what about you? Would you mind talking about your accident?" he asks.
I look at him.
I will, but which one?
I want to tell him about my experience with Hydra, but I can't.
I have to lie, expand the story.
„Y/N?"
I focus on him again.
„Oh I'm sorry, I was.. yeah nevermind."
„You don't have to, if you don't want to."
„No, no, no, it's alright." I say. „I just.. haven't really talked about it with someone else than Steve.."
„As I said, you don't have to."
„No I will, you also told me what happened to you, it wouldn't be fair if you don't know what happend to me."
Bucky smiles slightly.
I take a deep breath before I start to tell my fake story, it has to be as convincing as possible.
„So we were on this mission, the Avengers, Sharon and me as a special unit. That's what it says in my files. It was in a old kinda castle and I don't really remember more. I just know that I got separated from the others and there were gunshots. The rest is a blurry memory. They thought I was dead, not even Fury knew where I was. And then I went undercover. I did many experiments and eventually, when I thought it was ready, I did it on myself, which.. well didn't go as planned. Because when I woke up I, quite literally, lost my mind, but got superpowers."
I look down.
That's a lie, that's all one big lie.
I have to tell Steve about this later.
If Bucky or any of the others ever find out about the truth.. I'd be so dammed.
„Now I understand why they missed you so much.." he says. „You're pretty special."
I look up at him and smile slightly.
„But how do you know how to speak russian? Do you speak any other languages?" Bucky asks.
I panick a bit.
„Well you get bored after some time, so I started to learn some languages. I can speak russian and german, a bit of france and I only understand some spanish." I say.
That wasn't even a lie.
„German?" he asks.
„My grandma and mom were german, that was also in my files, but I really do know how to speak it."
„Say something.."
„Hallo, mein Name ist Y/N und ich mag Natasha und dich."
(Hello, my name's Y/N and I like Natasha and you.) I say.
„I did not understand a word, so I guess you're really speaking german."
„Yes, I am."
I smile slightly.

We've been talking some time, when he noticed the bag I got from Steve, while looking around my room a bit.
„You did very well yesterday." he says and looks at me again.
„Thanks."
„But why this combination of weapons?"
„I don't like guns, except for a pistol and I trained for a close fight, so knives are pretty handy. Even tho I can use guns and snipe and stuff, I just like them." I explain.
„Sniper, huh?"
„Yep." I say and nod.
„Impressive, I like that answer."
„You?" I ask.
„Oh I.. I use guns and knives, that's all. I mean I got a metal arm, so.."
„Oh yeah right, well that's advantageous."
„Depends on the perspective." he chuckles.
I smile too.
We talked some few more minutes before he left my room.
„It was nice talking to you." he says and smiles before walking out.
I nod and smile.
The door closes and I sit down on my bed again.
I look at my phone, it's 15pm.
I lay down and look at the ceiling.
What shall I do now?
I sit up and look at the bag.

After changing clothes and taking the bag, I walk to the lifts. I get invisible and go to the gym.
When I walk in it's empty.
„Good." I say quietly and look around.
I put the bag on a bench and take off my jacket. I prepare everything for my training and start.
Noone came the whole time, until I hear the door open. I look at it and see Natasha walking in. She comes up to me.
„Hey." she says.
I nod briefly.
„How long?"
„One and a half an hour."
She shakes her head slightly.
„I was bored.."
„Next time you're ‚bored', you can come to me." Natasha says.
I look at her.
„Wanna go to our place?"
I nod.
„But I'll change real quick." I say and take my stuff.
„I'm gonna be in the communicatiom room." she says.
„Okay."
I go to my room, throw the bag on the bed and change my clothes. I tie up my hair as I walk to the lifts.

As I enter the common room, I see Natasha talking with Steve. I walk up to them.
„Oh Y/N, good to see you." Steve says. „Tony has worked on a suit for you, I'll tell you more later."
„Yes, we have to talk."
I look at him.
„Shall we?" Natasha says and looks at me.
„Yep, let's go."
We walk to the lifts.
„Maybe you'll remember it." she says.
I look at her.
„Maybe.."

We left the Avengers Tower and I just followed her around. Natasha walks quite fast, but once we walk to an old, little building, she gets slower. I look at it and then her.
„This?" I ask.
She nods and opens the door with a key.
We walk inside.
„Wow.." I say.
Natasha looks at me.
„And..?"
I gaze around the room.
„Tell me about some stuff we did or happend here.."
„Well we've spend a lot of time here and also drank a lot." she tells with a chuckle. „It was wonderful, once even all the Avengers were here. We celebrated your 19th birthday.."
I look down but then at her.
„Sounds like we had a lot of fun here."
Nat walks over to a fridge and takes two beers. She opens them and hands me one. „Now it's legal for you to drink." she says and smirks.
I take it and we drink.
„But the place we've spent most time in this building is.." Natasha says and points at the rooftop. „Right there."
I look up.
„How do we get up there?" I ask.
„With this.." she says and pulls aside a curtain, which reveals a spiral staircase.
„How did I not notice this?"