The Shadow Sholdier

He's keeping it to himself

I wake up the next day, it's 7.12 am and the sun shines.
As I get up and ready, I listen to music. After I finished doing my hair, I went to the kitchen.
Natasha and Steve are sitting on the couch.
„Mornin'." I say.
„Hey."
„Good morning."
I walk past them, to the kitchen and make myself cereal. I join them on the couch and eat it.
They're talking about the training today.
„Combat?" Natasha asks.
„No, not again. Let's do some endurance training!" Steve says.
„Oh hell nah!"
Steve looks at me.
„Sorry."
I eat my cereal again.
„And what about Crossfit?" Nat suggests.
„Why don't we just individually train?" I ask.
They both look at me now.
„I mean it would better, wouldn't it? Everyone minds his own business and asks for help, if they need it."
Natasha looks at him, Steve nods.
„Okay, we'll do that."
„Great."
They continued talking ane I finished eating. I stand up and bring the dishes back to the kitchen. When I come back Bucky has sat down to them.
He looks at me as I sit down again.
I nod at him but listen the Natasha and Steve talking.
„So what are we going to train today?" Bucky asks.
„Y/N suggested to train individually." Nat says and looks at me.
„Sounds good to me." he says.
I check my phone.
It's 8.54am.
„And when are we gonna start?" I ask.
„After lunch?" Bucky asks.
„After lunch." Steve nods.
„Okay."
We talked a while until Wanda walks in.
„Isn't Clint visiting us today?" she asks.
„Yep, in the evening." Nat answers.
Wanda smiles happily and goes into the kitchen.
„Ima head out for now, someone call me when we'll train." I say and stand up.
„See ya around."

I walk off to the lifts.
„Y/N!"
I turn around, Steve followed me.
„Did I forget something?" I ask and check my pockets.
„No, no you didn't forget anything, I just need to talk to you."
I look at him with a serious expression.
„It's nothing like what you think." he says.
I sigh in relief.
„Okay.. and what is it?"
„Your suit."
„My suit?"
„Yeah, Tony made some designs. He'll show you tomorrow, I'm just letting you know."
„Thanks."
„Okay that was all, I'll to back to the others." he says and was about to walk off.
„Oh Steve, I need to talk to you about something.." I say and look at him.
„Sounds like this time it's something serious, huh?"
I nod.
„Okay, Ima go with you."

We go to my room.
Steve sits down on my bed, while I walk back and forth.
He looks at me.
„Now.. what is it?" he asks. „You've been walking around the last five minutes without saying anything."
„I have a guilty conscience, although it makes no sense because what I did was the right thing.." I answer.
„What did you do?"
I look at him.
„I told Bucky a fake story about me and my past." I say.
„You what?"
„Exactly, I knew you were gonna sa that."
„Wait, but.. why?"
I sigh slightly before answering his question.
„I wanted to know more about Bucky and his, or your past, even tho I could've just ask you, but after he told me something about Peggy and her making Bucky one of the first S.H.I.E.L.D. Agents I got curious and wanted to know more.."
He looks at me after I said her name.
„And after he told me his story, he asked about mine. I thought it wouldn't be fair if I didn't tell my story, but of course I couldn't tell my real story. I had to lie and that's what I did, I lied. I told him I was on a mission with all of the Avengers and Sharon and how I got separated and decided to go undercover and experiment. I told him that it's what is says in my files. And he kept asking about me knowing how to speak Russian and-"
„Okay, alright. You can stop." Steve says.
I stop walking around and look at him.
„I'm sorry."
„No, don't be."
He sighs slightly.
„First of all thank you for telling me that, second of all, we'll find a solution for this together, okay?"
I nod.
„Don't worry, Bucky will keep your story to himself." he says.
I sit down next to him and look outside.
It's a bit rainy now.
It's silent for some minutes.
„What was Peggy like?" I ask quietly and look at Steve.
He smiles softly.
„Different." he answers.
„In what way?"
„Every."
I smile slightly.
„So she was absolutely amazing?"
„More than that, she was beautiful, very smart and very strong and independent for a woman in the 40's, but apart from that she was just so nice and empathetic and loving.."
I look outside again.
„I wish I'd met her.."
„You did.. well, the other you did.."
„Okay, I wish I'd remember." I say and chuckle.
He shakes his head and smiles.
„She'd be so proud of you."
I look at him.
„She didn't know about Bucky and the whole Winter Soldier programe, I never told her. Hydra was gone for her. I didn't want her to die, knowing it's still existing. But if she knew what happend to you and that you managed to get out.. she'd definitely be proud if you." Steve says.
I tear up a bit and nod.
He puts an arm around my shoulder.
We stay like this.

After some minutes my phone lights up.
Steve and I look at it.
Sharon texted.
„What a coincidence.." Steve says.
I take it and open her message.
„She sent some photos." I say. „She texted ,Found them on my a old hard disk.'"
We go through them and Steve tells me the stories behind them.
I laugh a lot.

After half an hour Steve leaves my room.
I look at my files laying on the desk.
I shake my head.
„Everything will be alright." I say to myself and lay down, listening to music.

I did nothing else until Natasha texted me to come down.
That's what I did.
I sit down next to Natasha and we all eat together.
Meanwhile I feel safe with everyone here.
We sat together for quite a while, talking about everything that came us to our minds.
Until Steve said that we should get ready to train. Wanda and Vision cleared the table, while the rest of us went to the lifts. Natasha, Steve and I continued talking the whole time, Bucky just listened.
We all went to our rooms.
I step into my room and throw my phone on the bed. Then I get a top and some shorts for training. I go to the bathroom to change and do my hair.
Before I leave my room, I take a bottle of water and my phone with my headphones.
Natasha is standing there, waiting for a lift. I walk up to her. We take the lift to the gym.