Almost Alice » l.h

1.5

I spent the entire weekend in my room. I was either reading, writing, or listening to music. I didn't know exactly what to do with my thoughts, especially after talking to Amy about everything that Friday afternoon.

There were three things that we were both certain of: I liked Luke, Luke liked me, and Calum could definitely be trusted. But what was I supposed to do with this information? Amy thought it would be fine for me to date Luke but I still thought I'd just get stressed out. He didn't know everything. Even Calum didn't know everything.

The most important detail of my life was something I hadn't told anyone. Only my family knew and I didn't know if I could ever let anyone else know, even if that meant I'd never get married. I just couldn't take the rejection if someone found out about me. I knew what they would call me: freak, abomination, etc.

Sunday night after dinner, I went back into my room. I knew Amy wanted to talk to me about everything but she also knew I wanted my space. I laid down on my bed and put my headphones back in. I unlocked my phone and saw I had a text from a number I didn't know.

Unknown: Alice, it's Luke :) Amy gave me your number

I sighed and ran a hand through my hair. I was pretty positive I knew why he was texting me and that made me nervous. I didn't want to talk about my feelings or relationships or any of that stuff. But I figured it was best to do it like this than do it awkwardly face to face tomorrow morning.

Alice Ackerman: Hey.

To my surprise, he didn't reply right away. I waited five minutes and there still was no reply from him. Did he somehow know I didn't want to talk?

It took almost ten minutes for me to get a reply.

Luke: I wanted to talk about Friday if that's okay

Alice Ackerman: You mean about Ross?

Luke: The kiss

"Why me?" I sighed to myself, typing and re-typing a response. I didn't really know how to respond.

Alice Ackerman: What about it?

Luke: I really like you, Alice.

I read his text. I re-read it. I sat there looking at it for at least a whole sixty seconds as butterflies rampaged in my stomach. It was different seeing Luke actually tell me himself than hearing it from other people. It almost kind of made me want to say "screw it" and just jump right into a relationship with Luke if he wanted one.

Almost.

Alice Ackerman: I really like you too but it's complicated...

Luke: I know, Amy explained that you've never been in a relationship before. It's okay

That's not completely untrue.

Alice Ackerman: I just don't want things to turn out badly

Luke: I'll go easy on you, we can take it slow :)

Alice Ackerman: Is this your way of asking me to be your girlfriend?

Luke: Well, I'd rather not do that via text. Kind of dumb, don't ya think? ;)

I rolled my eyes and let out a small laugh.

Alice Ackerman: You didn't just send a winky face

Luke: Maybe I did ;) ;) ;)

Alice Ackerman: Don't be such a fuckboy

Luke: Did you mistake me for Calum?

Alice Ackerman: He's not that bad

Luke: If you say so. I'll see you tomorrow. Sweet dreams, Alice xx

I couldn't help but blush at his text.

Alice Ackerman: Goodnight Luke

I rolled onto my stomach and was about to turn my lamp off and go to sleep early until my phone dinged again. This time, it was from a number already in my contacts - from the party - but I'd never texted.

Calum Hood: heard luke kissed you

I rolled my eyes as I typed back a response.

Alice in Wonderland: From who?

Calum Hood: from the boy himself. guess he still thinks i like you and wanted to rub it in my face

Alice in Wonderland: Jesus, what ever happened to "don't kiss and tell"?

Calum Hood: that went out the window a while ago. i get you're home schooled but have you been living under a fucking rock?

Alice in Wonderland: Fuck you. Did he say anything else?

Calum Hood: he just texted me that he's asking you out tomorrow. thoughts?? ;)

I mean, I inferred he was going to ask me out tomorrow but I also didn't think it would actually happen. I didn't really know what I was going to say or how I felt about it.

Alice in Wonderland: No comment until tomorrow

Calum Hood: you're no fun

Alice in Wonderland: Well, you know me

Calum Hood: better than luke does

Alice in Wonderland: Don't even

Calum Hood: sorry allykins. i'll let you get your beauty sleep. god, do you need it

Alice in Wonderland: Night asshole

Calum Hood: goodnighttttt

Before any other random people started texting me, I shut my phone off, along with my lamp, and went to sleep.

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Someone asked if Alice was forced into sex before and that's her secret and the answer is nO. I don't think I'd ever really want to write a story about that just because I know people are really sensitive to stuff like that. So no, that's not it