Tabitha tilted her head and stared at me, causing everything in my stomach to twist and turn.
"Tabitha Camilla Thompson- why are you staring at me like that?" I asked with a small blush rushing across my cheeks.
"You're so pretty," she said in a whi...
"Come on babe, you're no fun anymore!" Tyler whined with the biggest puppy dog eyes as the two of us sat in the equipment room.
It was around lunchtime and Tyler oh-so desperately wanted to make out with me- now, he was trying to get me to give him a blowjob.
"I just don't feel like it today- okay?!" I tried moving his hands away from my waist- but they were firmly placed there, I sighed, "Please let me go..."
"No," he said, his dark eyes staring down at me with anger, "all of my friends' girlfriends have sex with them- but you-"
"I'm not your friends' girlfriend!" I interrupted angrily, "I'm your girlfriend," I said quietly and moved my eyes anywhere but him- avoiding his glance.
"Well I said I'll wait for my girlfriend- and it's been two years! I tried blowjobs- handsy make outs- grinding- but you're just a prude" he stated
My brows furrowed, "what the hell" I said in a soft voice. Because what the hell?
Was he only with me for sex?! Sure I wasn't with him because I loved him but I wasn't using him for his body!
Anger began to grow inside of me. If this were me when Tyler and I started dating, I would be crying- I would do anything to be with him.
But this wasn't me when we started dating. This was the part of me that fell out of love for him.
The part of me that was mad because she was being used for her body by her FIRST and only boyfriend.
"Are you seriously only with me because of my fucking body?!" I yelled.
"No-" he began, but I already had slapped his hands away-
Perks of having an aggressive little sister.
"You made it seem like you said that!" I yelled once I was free from his grasp.
His brows furrowed, "Well yeah- I have a hot ass girlfriend and I want to fuck her- is that a crime? I mean- you're already seen as a whore anyways!"
My heart rate quickened. He was right.
My reputation is split- Tabitha Thompson- the loser, or Tabitha Thompson- the slut.
Here I was trying my best not to do sexual shit with Tyler- and here were my peers saying that I went behind the bleachers and sucked off all the basketball players, alongside Mindy Kendall- the real school slut.
And if's not mean because she's not assumed of it- when she dated one of Tyler's friends, she said it herself!
And even if I've always been aware of my social status in his school, it sort of hurts hearing someone say it out loud.
Like I said the other day, maybe Tyler was as good as I could get- what if he was the only one who would stick around through all my shit?
While I knew Tyler's never been there for me...
All I could think about as I stood there- back facing Tyler, is that he was the best I could do.
The best I could do was Tyler- hanging out in Issac's basement and getting high- the best I could do was Tyler- the guy who wanted to make out every second of the damn day, the best I could do was Tyler- the guy my parents hated- the neat I could do was Tyler, who didn't care about my well being-
Over the years, Tyler's made it pretty sure all he was here for was my body.
And so maybe I should give it to him... . . . "That was... wow," Tyler said in an amazed-childlike voice as the sound of his pants zipper filled the room.
I just stood there in the corner of the room with a blank expression on my face as I put my underwear back on.
Wow. I can't believe I just did that.
I just lost my virginity...
In an equipment room.
My heart pounded rapidly and I found it hard to speak.
I couldn't even speak to lie and say it was good. It just-
Hurt.
I just lost my virginity in an equipment room...
Tears stung in my eyes and I still couldn't talk. I wanted to speak, I wanted to be happy- I wanted to feel something.
But I didn't.
I didn't feel anything.
I couldn't feel anything.
My heart just kept pounding and I wanted to be alone. I wanted to disappear- I didn't want to go back to class- or anything.
I just wanted to sit there and curl up into a ball.
But I couldn't.
"So how was that" Tyler smirked and grabbed me by the waist, his sudden touch caused me to shiver but he ignored this small reaction and planted a long, rough kiss on my lips.
"Good" I lied in a soft voice.
Tyler seemed satisfied with himself and patted me on the head as if I were a fucking dog.
I didn't have enough energy to stop him- I just let him...
"See ya later, babe," he said before exiting the room and leaving me by myself.
