It All Started With A Ride

35. "Evil" vs. little siblings

Harmony wasn't kidding about taking my friends and Tabitha- I knew she wasn't. But I didn't exactly make it hard for her- I successfully said "I'm busy" for at least four weeks- the last weeks of October, and the first one of November before I did it- I did exactly what Harmony was expecting me to do. I snapped.

"Listen, Elaine," I said earlier today- I think we were going to lunch that period, I don't know- all I know is that I skipped at least two periods crying in the bathroom until I couldn't breathe anymore and all the girls vaping told me to shut the fuck up.

Being around them for so many hours, I think I got high as hell- I smelled like smoke or vape or whatever when I got home and Madison had to tell me to take a shower before my ass got "caught", but what I was saying was, I slammed my locker shut and turned to Laney- who now, as I suggested, had purple hair that looks sort of pale- it was a nice color on her but I knew exactly what I had to say to make her and the rest of my friends go away.

Eliane- her real name, was just the start, I noticed when I said that her brows raised, "Eliane?" she repeated.

I looked at her coldly. I was so used to doing this and it was because I knew it would happen one day.

Not Harmony coming- I didn't plan that- but the time when I would have to leave my friends.

The time when I would start over again.

Or, maybe I wouldn't tell Mom, maybe I would suffer for the rest of this year and until I go to NYU.

That's when I'll get away from everything and my body.

All I need now, is for NYU to accept me- and I know they will, I'm super smart- could've skipped grades in the kindergarten, and got accepted into Summerville's Academy spontaneously for god's sake!

"Yes, that's your name isn't it?" I folded my arms over my chest as Laney's brows couldn't seem to raise any higher, "look, I don't know how many times I had to say 'I'm busy' before it gets in you guys' heads that I don't want to be friends anymore!" I laughed and shook my head- I already felt horrible about what I was about to say next- but I had to it's been like four weeks they have to get used to this before it's too late, I didn't know if leaving was an option I wanted to take again, but I knew this- Laney, Layla, Charles- and especially Tabitha, I'm so, so sorry.

I love you guys so much, I wanted to say that- but I couldn't.

"You're whiney, Layla's a mega bitch-"That was exactly why we became friends! Because Layla was a bitch, but she loved me- and I loved her!
"Charles is- well, a guy" I rolled my eyes, this had to look convincing, "and Tabitha-" is the most beautiful human being alive who I wanted to kiss and make Harmony go away from and hug until she couldn't breathe and text all the time and tell her I loved her but I couldn't...

I shrugged, it was then when the bell rang and Laney- with her brows raised in surprise and tears forming in her brown eyes, nodded.

There was no use in saying anything else, I knew she'd tell the other.

My heart felt as if it was going to explode in my chest. As soon as I was out of Laney's sight- that's when I dashed into the bathroom and cried- until I couldn't cry anymore.

I knew this was going to be hard- but why was it this hard?

I wanted to disappear. That would've saved this many years of friendship for this big of a heartbreak.

I wish I had never left Bridgewell- then, things would've been easy for my friends at the very least...
. . .
"Max!" Madison yelled, banging on the bathroom door.