my sweet bully🌺 (Vkook Ft. Namjin)

Soulmates (2)🌺

Taehyung POV.

"He left me.... My bunny left me too...."

I looked at the closed door and fat tears started to pour out of my eyes...

"Why does no one believe me? I know my hyung more than anyone and I know he can never be that greedy ...."

He said my hyungies doesn't love me.... Jimin said my hyungie never loved me but it's not true, I know joonie hyungie loves me ___ he always had loved me..... Right?

"H-He l-love me , j-jimin is laying..... He- he's lying.
Everyone is wrong! T-They are wro- (heavy breathing)"

'What is happening? Why can't I breath? Don't tell I'm having a panic attack!! No no please not now, not when I'm alone! What should I do? I-I can't....'

My vision got blurred , and I could feel my heart pounding in my chest so loud . I prayed for the end of this intense panic attack, but I could feel my throat tightening again."Just breathe Tae..... It's ok you're ok , just breathe" Telling myself again and again to breathe wasn't helping at all as my breathing became more slow and short , by now I was practically gasping for air and I felt as if my lungs were burning in fire . The walls in my room seems closing in. I was suffocating. I felt sick and my body was weirdly tingling. My vision tunneled. How was I supposed to be calm? I have a feeling of intense fear .... Fear of the reality, what if jimin was right ? What if my hyung never love- no no tae don't think like that, be strong..... please.... I was murmuring to myself but my body kept shaking and sweating hard....

Medicine... I gotta take my medicine. I gathered all the strength in my body and moved forward to open the drawer but it wasn't enough..... I failed miserably as I fell down along with the glass of water which I was holding, I don't even know when I grabbed the glass to drink...

My body gave up and so did I. I curl up in a ball and stayed there, on the cold floor.... Shivering and shaking , I couldn't move, couldn't breathe, It's like my body has forgotten how to inhale the oxygen, I was helpless and that felt pathetic .... Finally my tears started streaming out as I no longer could hold them back...

'Why... Why am I so weak? Why did everyone leave me behind? And left me alone? Why no one ever loved me? Not my hyungies nor my friends and him too..... My bunny .... He too left me .... Am I that bad? Don't I deserve to be loved? To be cared ? What did I do wrong to deserve this darkness of mine? Should I just die? Maybe then everything will hurt less.... I should just kil-'

My head was occupied with various thoughts and none seemed to be positive.... I was drowning in the darkness , deeper and deeper until I no longer had to come out or maybe I no longer wanted to come out... but then I saw the little ray of light and a soft voice full of worry... Someone was worried for me, can that be even possible? I have hurt all the people who have always shown me love and care and in the end it's me who pushed them away by my own foolish behaviour... Then why would anyone care about someone like me??

"Tae!!! Oh my god! Tae ? Are you ok ? Tae!! Can you hear me?? Tae!!!!"

"Bunny?...."

I opened my eyes and saw his big Bambi eyes... They were looking at me with concern and fear.
Fear? For what? I don't know.....

"Tae , keep your eyes open baby, keep your eyes on me. See I'm here , your bunny is here with you. I got you bub , I got you. No need to worry baby, you're not alone, I'm here. Just breathe ok?"

By now I was on his lap while he was cradling me . His warm hands were wrapped around me , making me feel secure and caressing my back.
I was still in pain, my lungs were still burning _ screaming for some air and yet I felt calm, I felt safe... I felt much better in his embrace.

"I can't-"

That was all I could speak before coughing violently and gasping again...

"Please baby... Try to breathe, I know you can do that . Please for me bub , I'm beginning you please.... Just breathe. You remember our breathing technique right? Let's follow it , one, two, three take a deep breath, now exhale slowly. Good job bub , you're doing great. Now one more time one, two, three......"

I keep on following his instructions and little by little my condition got better. After few minutes which felt like hours, I felt good ... I felt myself breathing again normally . I was fine now but still he was holding me tight on his lap as if he's afraid...

"Jungkook.... I'm ok , you can leave me now"

I said softly while looking at him with a little smile, but instead of leaving he hugged me even tighter....

"Gosh tae, you scared me to death. I don't know what I would do if anything happens to you . Please don't do this again, I can take it "

His voice was low and gentle but I felt pain in my heart at how fragile he sounded , I could feel my shoulder getting wet from the hot liquid pouring out from his Bambi eyes....

"Jungkook? Are you cry-"

"Shhh, just let me be like this for a while bub ..... please..."

I tried to broke the hug as I wanted to wipe his tears away but he didn't let me, he ketp me in his arms .... Tight and firm but at the same time gently and carefully.

I was caressing his nape and hair while petting his back, trying to make him calm and after like ten or so minutes he gently pulled out of the hug and hurriedly wiped his face .

"Jungkook , I...."

"Hmmm... What is it baby?"

He's soft voice is literally melting me inside out.....

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have used Those words, I was being rude to you and to jimin and yoongi hyung too.... I'm sorry but I couldn't hold back my anger when jimin was taking like that. I mean how could he? "

I apologised and he cupped my face, looking at me with his 'those' eyes ...

"I understand your anger and your behaviour bub but you shouldn't have be that rude to jimin , he has his own reasons to behave like that too. You both were wrong with your behaviours"

"What do you mean? What reason could that be for him to behave that doubtful and harsh ?"

I asked as he sigh sadly,

"You see jimin had everything. A happy family with a loving father, caring mother and a protective big brother, but everything changed when...."

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