Its been a couple of weeks since the incident at scarletts house. Lizzies been wanting me to share what happened but I don't think I'm ready for her to hear it yet- let me correct myself. She isn't ready to hear it yet.
I wake up to a weight on my chest "lizzie" I groan and she sits up "what?" "I thought I was supposed to be doing this to you and you were the big spoon" I frown "oh yeah, sorry" she giggles and sits up. She hand holds mine and her fingers mold the back of my hand "we should do another pottery session" she croaks in her raspy morning voice "we should. I think that would bring back memories". She leans down and kisses my lips softly but with so much love "I'll go and make breakfast. What does your tummy say this morning?" "Um bacon" I answer. She laughs "just bacon?" I shrug "ill make rolls. Bacon rolls" I smile and let go of her hand so she can get up to make us food. Lizzies really good at making food. I thought not but she's a mini chef.
I've been staying with Lizzie for the past week, she didn't want me to be alone in my apartment incase I have another 'episode' as she calls it. It was nothing to what I normally get. I don't think she knows that. I open my travel bag and pick out my summer dress, it's really comfy and it's kind of smart. I brush my hair and do my makeup "Y/n dinner!" Lizzie calls from downstairs "coming" I answer otherwise she'll get angry.
'Here" she hands me the plate and we both go outside and sit in her garden. "You know what we should do. We should have like a patch and plant flowers and things together" she smiles biting into the roll "bit it might die because im not very good at looking after things" "oh come on, yes you are. I'll buy you a hamster and then we can see" I shake my head smiling and chew the food which is in my mouth. I lean up against her and she puts her arms around me securely "I've met your family so I think you should meet mine" I mumble and sit up. I look into Lizzies eyes and I'm met with an ibis of green "are you sure? You haven't met all my family, you haven't met my dad or my other siblings" I nod "yeah-well no not really. I don't really want to see my dad but I think you should and my grandparents and he'll be there". Lizzie frowns "why aren't you sounding very enthusiastic?" I sigh "just because. He isn't like a great dad and he drinks far too much. I didn't feel safe around him when I was younger thats why I lived with my grandma. I haven't seen them in a while but phone every once in a while".
Lizzies hands find mine "okay but only if your sure" I nod "yeah im sure. I'll phone tomorrow and see if we can go on Wednesday" she holds my hand and smiles softly "where do they live?" "Um not too far. Maybe two hours" she nods and I watch her eyes keep stareing at my chest. I laugh and she instantly looks back up "what?" "You. Stop stareing" lizzie blushes deeply and hides her face "hey no! You can't do that!" I pull her hands away from her face and smirk "you just look so hot". I move towards her and kiss her lips passionately, her hands find my baby hairs on the back of my neck whilst my hands stabilise us on the floor. We pull away when airs necessary but go straight back in "I love you so much" she mumbles against my cheek placing a soft kiss on it afterwards "are you sure it's not just my boobs you love" I tease.
We head back inside and go up to lizzies room "y/n" I hum brushing my brunette hair which is way past my shoulders "I'd never seen you sad until last week" I turn around and smile softly "I've never seen you sad" I smile softly making her get up from the bed. Lizzie rests her chin on my shoulder to stop me from brushing my hair "you were really overheating and had a panick attack. I have a really good Councillor if you think that will help. I know you don't want to talk about whatever it is with me so it might be easier with her" she tells me softly. I put my brush down and think about it all "I've already had one, they don't help" I walk away from her and go into the bathroom.
Standing infront of the mirror, I stare at myself and how awful I am as a human. I can't do what humans have been designed to do. That makes me a monster. I splash water over my face and dry it with a towel before brushing my teeth and having a quick shower. I open the bathroom door "hey um I'm sorry" lizzie apologises from the bed, I sit on the bed next to her and lay my head on her lap so she brushes her hands through my hair. "It's okay" I mumble and hold one of her hands. I look up at Lizzie and hold one of her arms "I'll tell you, I'm just not ready yet" she nods lovingly and strokes my cheek "and that's okay, I don't mind when I just want to make sure your okay". I smile softly and lean over to kiss her lips "im okay" lizzie presses our lips together and puts her hand where my tail bone is.
I pull away when air is finally necessary and stare into each of her emerald eyes "Scarlett wasn't there, I didn't know her when it happened. I was in high school" lizzie nods "don't tell me now, your not ready. I'm not going anywhere so tell me only when your ready" I nod in agreement "thank you for being so understanding" a soft smile forms on her face "Are you planning on staying in bed all day or not?". A grin appears on my face and I pet out a whine during my morning stretch "I might go to the gym today" "okay. I can come with you, we can be work out buddies" I laugh at her weirdness "your joking right?" She shakes her head "no, I'm being serious. Why? Do you not want to work out together?". I shake my head "no because you'll be running at 1mph and I'll be at 5mph meaning we won't be together" lizzie rolls her eyes and throws a pillow at me. Waking me multiple times. I jump of the bed to escape the evil witch and take off my pajamas, Lizzies eyes widen and she looks up at down my body "stop!" I laugh and put my some pants and gym shorts first. I then put my sports bra on and tie my hair into a tight ponytail so it doesn't fall out whilst I'm practicing.
"Your need really going like that are you?" Lizzie asks as I walk out the bedroom door, I poke my head back in a nod "yeah why? Is there something wrong?". She gets off the bed and wraps her arms around me "well yes. This" she smacks my buttcheeks making me gasp "and this" she puts her hands on each of my boobs. I smirk and put my hands on her chest "I'll be fine. There's loads of woman there who wear the same thing. Plus, the men take no notice- well most of them dont" I correct myself. Lizzie raises her eyebrows and holds my waist "I bet you look hotter than everyone else" she teases and kisses my nose "well yes, in your eyes I am. There's lots of abs and muscle there too, you should come some time". I take her hands off me "plus Matthews there, I'll be fine" she takes her hands off me and cups my face "who's matthew?" "My spotter" she pushes me away "ugh, get out of here" I laugh walking off "love you!" I call going down the stairs "love you too!".
I arrive at the gym and put my rucksack in my locker before heading to the main section. I sign in and scan my gym membership card so I'm allowed to enter the gym. "Morning y/n" Matthew smiles over from the weights "hey. How are you?" I ask joining him picking up a 10kg "not bad. What about you?" I nod "excellent actually. I have a partner now" his eyebrows raise "really! Good for you. What's their name?" "Elizabeth. I think you'd like her if you met her". He smiles at me for a while "good for you" I frown with a smile "what? She's nice. And she's the only person ,other than, you who's treated me right". I start doing my bicepcurls "does she do great sex?" I laugh at his question and nod "then you've got a winner. Bet its not as great as mine" I look at him confused "how am I supposed to now?" He laughs. After a while, I start doing pullups on the bar and because he's my spotter/trainer Matthew has to be with me. He lifts me up so I can reach the bars and I curl my fingers tightly around it "okay. Let's do twenty first and then move up" I sigh and do twenty pull ups. "Good job! Now 30".
I start to feel my hands ache and I start going slower. Matthew puts his hands on my hips for support "come on, you've got five left. Four...three" my hands slip making me slip from the bars. Matthew catches me luckily but after my head hits the bar "fuck" I mumble feeling a sting on my forehead. I sit on the floor and he kneals infront of me "you good?" I nod and touch my forehead "fine" I answer "you'll need ice for that. We ran out an hour ago so you'll need to call someone to bring some". I nod and pull out my phone "you alright though?" I nod and stand up "im fine. Thanks for catching me though" he smiles and pants my shoulder "thats my job".
I phone lizzies answer and wait for her to pick up. "Hey baby. Is everything okay?" Her soft voice asks from the other end "c-can you bring some ice?" The line goes silent. "Why do you need ice? What the hell have you done?" "Nothing. I promise. Please" I hear her sigh "I'll be there in ten. This better not be a sprained ankle because I swear to go-" "it's not. Thanks". I end the call and sit on a bench in the corner. I watch Matthew, his big muscles and his eight pack as he lifts 30kg of weights into the air.
I catch Lizzie with an icepack in her hand at the door. She smiles seeing me and runs over "are you okay? What did you do?" She asks bending down "I slipped doing pullups and hit my head". Her hand brushes some hair away from my eyes "I see it now, your hair was hiding it. You've got an egg". She holds the icepack to it and cups my cheek "I told you it should have come. If I was here, this wouldn't have happened" I role my eyes "it would have, trust me. Its fine, the swelling just needs to go down" I explain.
