It's new year and my stomachs bigger. Our little miracle is definitely getting the right amount of nutrients. Lizzie thought it's twins because I've grown so much but I can definitely assure her it isn't. The baby's big and I've even managed to get a portable ultrasound machine from the hospital so we can see the baby whenever we want to.
I wake up to an empty bed which isn't normal for this time in the morning. Lizzie normally sleeps in until about nine which is alot later than me. I pat the bed beside me just to make sure but she definitely isn't there. The bathroom doors open aswell so she isn't in there. "Lizzie" I whisper but when there's no answer I slide out of bed and go down the stairs quietly after putting my dressing gown on and my slippers to keep my toes warm. "I know mom but whenever I see her all I can do is worry. I can't stop" I hear Lizzie from the kitchen, I look through the gap between the doorframe and the door and she's on the phone. "I can't help it though. All I can think about is something happening to y/n and the baby. If she goes through a miscarriage I don't know how she'd take it" I stop and slowly head back upstairs. I climb into bed and close my eyes. Why does she think about that? Does she think something's going to happen?
Lizzies hand strokes through my hair making her presence known. I roll over to face her and she smiles down at me softly "good morning" "morning" she bends down and pecks my lips "would you like some breakfast?" I shake my head and cup my stomach under the duvet with one hand "you have to eat later then. How's my little blueberry?" "Cosy. I want cuddles" she smiles softly and sits comfortablely so I can lay my head on her croch. One of her hands strokes my hair whilst the other caresses my stomach "when I woke up you weren't here' I pout up at her "I was letting Leia out, hope you don't mind" I shake my head and hold the middle of her arm. "last night I had a dream" I look up at her "was it a good one or a scary one?" "Well scary ones are called nightmares, not dreams. In my dream we went to Lapland and went sledging through trees with our holiday hut in the forest. It was a very cute holiday" I smile up at her "that's so cute". I take my hands down to my stomach and rub small circles over my bellybutton "are you okay?' I nod looking up at her "yeah. Do you want to have a look at them?' a little smile appears on her face "come on then. Can you set it up whilst I go for a wee? My bladder feels like it could explode".
I go downstairs and spot Lizzie in the kitchen with the blinds still closed and she's just staring at the floor.
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I stand in the hall thinking on what I should do. I walk over to her slowly and move one side of her hair behind her shoulder "hey baby" I whisper softly but she doesn't say anything, I pick her hand up from the counter and place it flat on my bump. She flinches coming back to reality and holds it just above it, her hands shaking vigorously whilst her body trembles. "Hey it's okay. It's okay" I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her into me for a cuddle "your okay" I repeat and kiss the top of her head. I pull away and pecks her lips leaving a 'p' sound when they unattach. "How's your anxiety and overthinking going recently?' I ask softly "okay" she mumbles so I nod "that's good. Do you want to tell me what's on?" She stays quiet "it's not normal for you to tremble touching me, especially if it's associated with blueberry. What's going on? You can tell me" "later? Can we talk about it later?" I nod and carefully take her hand "let's go and see bluey, I'm sure you'll get cheered up". We go into the lounge and I lay down on the sofa whilst Lizzie squirts the gel on my stomach, I pull the table over with the machine and turn it on. She kneals down beside me and runs her hands through my hair "ready?" She nods. I pick up the probe and move it around until our little devil pops up. I watch a smile form on Lizzie's face which is exactly what I need, her finger traces over the screen and I watch her eyes fill with water. My free hand runs through her hair "their okay, there's nothing to worry about. They are the size of a fig" she turns around and kisses my lips "your sure?" "99.99% sure. Press that button" "this one?" I nod. It's takes a second but the little heartbeat starts playing. I nestle my face into Lizzie's neck and just listen to the sound of our baby breathing. "Leia sit" she tells our puppy so I look to see what's happening "it's okay, it's just the baby. It's just the baby" Lizzie reassures her and strokes her fur. "How much do they weigh?' "less than a kilogram. Their feet are about a centimetre in length".
