The past weeks gone by in a blur. I literally can't remember anything that's happened. I haven't been home very much since I've been working the whole week and this week, Lizzie's going to do some filming before Christmas and then carry on in the new year once the festive seasons over. Today though, I think Lizzie's getting the Christmas decorations down from the attic and we're going to decorate the house and put the tree up. We're having a fake tree this year which I'm not happy about because the smell from it makes me want to be sick. Stupid baby.
"Okay babeeverything's down from the loft" she says coming back down the ladder "was there alot of spider up there?" She starts chuckling "well yeah, it's an attic. There was a really big one, like this big" she makes a circle with her hands and my heart skips a beat "don't do that. I won't sleep tonight" she smiles and rubs my arm "I'm only joking, I didn't see a single one. Your safe" I give her a frown "if I get bitten and get some horrible disease, it's your faullt" "yes babe". I pick up a box full of Christmas things but she's quick to take it from me "no heavy lifting, I'll carry it" "I can take something, I'm not a fragile" she sighs and picks up the ballball box "you can take this, nothing more. I'll come up for the others". I follow her down the stairs and we put the boxes on the floor in the living room "Leia" I coo and comes over "you can't eat the Christmas decorations okay? Can you not do that?" She barks wags her tail. Lizzie goes ustairs to get the other boxes so I start to unpack the boxes with Leia sitting by my side "aww" I pick up a miniature Christmas true I used to have on my windowsill in my flat before I met Lizzie. Leia places her head on my lap and I stroke it softly "got the others" I turn my head to look at her and smile "do you want to get started?" "Definitely". I stand up and help her get the tree out of the box "I hate that we can't have a real tree" I mumble attaching the legs to it "we can go back to a real tree next year and we'll also have a beautiful baby to share it with. I'd rather have a fake tree than you be sick whenever you smell pine" Leia looks up at me with her ears up in the ear like Yoda "you'll have you tree next year to chew next year puppy-" "and a baby to lick and sniff" Lizzie adds. I bend down and scratch Leias ears "your not going to be the only child' Lizzie says tapping my tummy "there's a baby". Leia sniffs my stomach making me silently laugh "aww" Lizzie coos and kisses just above my belly button. Leia copies but licks it instead "aww you love them?" She barks looking up at me "your adorable" I kiss her nose and allow her to lick my chin.
We start decorating the house by putting hangers above the the doors and putting up the Christmas tree. We've also put a couple of mini Christmas on the windowsills that where in my house and changed the rug, towels and oven gloves in the kitchen to Christmas ones which Lizzie quickly got at target the other week.
We got the biggest tree that would fit in the lounge and Lizzie wanted the most natural looking we could find so in the end we went for the 6'7 tree which is enormous. Leia hasn't tried to eat it yet so we are on a okay page. I lean up against Lizzie as we admire the tree "is it okay?" "It's beautiful. I think we made it as natural as we could" she smiles softly and kisses my parting "let's have a little break and then I'll start on lunch". We sit on the sofa and Leia jumps up next to Lizzie "um-" "let her, she needs the attention before the baby comes" I stop my wife. Lizzie turns the TV on and goes onto netflix "what do you fancy watching?" "Um Romance" she lays the blanket across my lap and makes sure my backs supported with a cushion. I cuddle into her once the movie starts and her hand instantly finds its way to my stomach, I smile at her and she smiles back "is this okay?" "More than okay. I can't imagine it anyother way Mrs Olsen".
Half way through the film Lizzie decides to stop it and make us both some lunch that we can eat whilst we watch the second half. A bit like a theater. Leia follows her into the kitchen to get food leaving me on the sofa with the Christmas decorations, I take my phone out and have a scroll through social media. Lizzie posted a picture of our bedroom after she decorated and a couple more of Leia that I haven't seen but none of our scan. I'm thinking maybe she doesn't want to share it with the public but they will find out somehow whether she wants them to or not. Lizzie comes back in with a bagette and Leia following behind her "here you go, your favourite" she hands it to me and I lift the top. Mozzerella, tomatoes and pesto. I close my eyes taking in the smell "ill be right back, I just need to get mine" she smiles going into the kitchen. I take my first bite and my eyes flutter at the taste "is that good baby?" I nod and lean on her shoulder "it's perfect" she smiles cutely and tucks a strand of hair behind my ear "baby like it aswell? Do you think it will stay down?" I nod humming "definitely". I lean on her shoulder and take in her sweet scent "are you okay?' I nod and put my hand on her thigh "your going to be an amazing mum" "you are too. Whoever the little purple monster turns out to be, we'll both be there for them as his or her mum's". I scratch my ear "for my push present I want a sushi tray" "whats that?" "A present you buy me after I push our baby out of course. For Aveli or Benjamin Olsen" her eyebrows raise making me laugh"more names?" I nod.
I turn my head and look into her green irises "I love it when you look at me like that" she smiles softly and kisses my nose "I know you do baby, I love looking at you" I smile and tie her hair into a ponytail "you should pack for tomorrow" I tell her "I should, do you want to come?' I nod and get up from the sofa. It's so strange because when Lizzie comes back from filming for Christmas I'll be nine weeks meaning I'll be having an ultrasound without her and three weeks without her. She holds my hips as we walk up the stairs and into our room. She puts her suitcase on the bed and starts loading all her things "when you come back I'll be nine weeks" she looks up and frowns "will you be showing?' I shake my head "that's normally 12 to 16 weeks" she smiles softly and folds a top "send me a photo of the scan" "I will and I'll tell you if anything changes" I sit on the bed and help her pack her suitcase "it doesn't feel right leaving" "I know but when we did the transfer we both knew you were going to go away during the pregnancy more than once. This time it's Atlanta so you'll still be in north America and it's only a four hour flight. That's not that much Liz" she nods sadly packing her underwear. I stand up and hug her tightly "your not going to miss anything. I'm still going to be here when you get back" "well that's a good thing' I laugh and play with her hair "your not going to miss anything, I promise".
Lizzies leaving today and I'm gutted even though she doesn't know that, she can't know that. Because I'm high risk, anything could happen and it would be awful if she wasn't here if something happened. "Hey I'm going now" I get up from the sofa and walk over to her "okay, is the taxi here?" She nods and puts on her coat "remember to keep warm, even when your walking to set okay. I'll message Scarlett and check you are" "I'm sure you will. I want you to message me everyday, even if it's just morning sickness. I want to know what's happening" I smile softly and lean into her touch "you should go" "not before I get a kiss". I lean forward, my hands find the back of her neck as sink into the kiss "I love you" I whisper "I love you too" she smiles and looks down at my stomach "I love you aswell" she bends down and kisses it a couple of times before saying bye to Leia. "Be good for mommy laylay.bim going to miss you" Leia licks Lizzie's cheek but then she stand up and picks up her suitcase "call me" "I will" I hold Leias collar so she can't follow Lizzie out to the taxi. She waves bye to us getting in and I wave back, Leia barks confused at where her mamas going but I assure her that everything's okay.
