Two headligjts blind my eyes and I turn my face away for a breith second whilst the car pulls up Infront of us. I turn back and wait nervously for the car door to open whilst Lizzie stands by my side with my suitcases. "Y/n" Grandma says and walks towards me with her face dark because there's no light, her hand finds the back of my head whilst I cry silently "there you are, I found you" I choke up a chuckle and hug her tightly "I missed you so much" I sob with blurry vision from my teary eyes "I missed you too. Is your hair long now? I can feel it past your shoulders' I nod and stand up "yeah, it's alot longer since the wedding". Grandad gets out the passenger seat holding a lamp that lights up his face "where's my granddaughter?" He asks looking around being blinded "shes here" grandma let's go of me and I walk over to him. "Hi grandad" he smiles softly and touches my face with his free hand "oh there you are. It's so dark, I can't see anything" I laugh and pull him into a hug "you smell just like you mother" I smile and pull away "I missed both of you so much" I cry and they both hold one of my hands and rub them softly "we're here now Y/n". I look back and see the outline of Lizzies figure "Lizzie's here somewhere. She's probably hiding in the dark" she comes closer and the light finally shows her face "hi Elizabeth" grandma says and hugs her tightly "good evening" she greets back and then hugs my grandad. I smile at her and hold her hand that's down by my side "have you got your bags?" I nod "yeah and I've eaten is that okay?" "Of course it is, we thought you'd be having dinner together" "remind me why Elizabeth isn't coming to our house again" "I need to stay for work for insurance purposes and timing but of course I would have come if I could" I nod in agreement "and why aren't you staying here?' grandma asks, her blue eyes searching my face "there isnt room in the caravan its so tiny and so is the bed" lizzie says "especially now im pregnant" i add with i smile. There faces change and then they both smile "your pregnant?' I nod "yeah, that's what I'm pregnant means. We're twenty seven weeks" grandma pulls me into a long hug and starts whimpering "aww, your mum would be so proud of you" I pull away and smile "she would. Before you ask, we don't know the gender and we don't know a name yet and yes I'm fine and so is the baby". I hug grandad whilst grandma pulls Lizzie into a hug "woah, you really are pregnant" he says shining the light at my stomach "yup" I agree and turn to Lizzie "you all should get going, there's a drive ahead and it's late" she says and I nod "yeah I'm tired and my legs hurt" grandad grabs my suitcases "we'll put these in the car, let you say your goodbyes and whatever you do" they wheel them off and Lizzie pulls me into her by my hips causing my bump to hit her slim flat stomach. I let out a little grunt and smile at her "well have a nice warm cosy night" she says "I'm sure I will. Have a cold night in your tiny caravan" I kiss her lips "I'll see you tomorrow morning, don't look so sad. I'm taking you to my favourite place tomorrow" "your favourite place? Does this happen to be Legoland or the beach?" I push my lips outwards and move my eyes around "maybe and a bit of cold swimming. You have to join me though, it's good for the baby and the immune system" Lizzie friend "its not really at the top of my bucket list babe, not going to lie" "you have to. If I go in then you do too. Your the one who said were doing this pregnancy together so your coming into the English seas that are no warmer than 12 degrees".
Lizzie opens the car door for me and the lights turn on in the back "drive safe" she tells grandad "don't worry, I'll get her home in one bit" he assures her whilst she watches me buckle in. Lizzie kisses my lips one last time "I love you" "love you too" she closes the door and waves us off ok our journey back to my grandparents. I rub my bump and lean against the door "if your tired there's a blanket back there you can use as a pillow" grandma says turning back to look at me "oh no that's alright, I can make it home. I think" they both laugh and turn on some low volume jazz.
We finally arrive at their house and it's the big farm house I remember from when I was small. Their doors open so I open mine aswell, grandma gets my bags from the boot and grandad helps me out of the car since the space is so small "there you are" I smile softly and walk around to meet grandma. I grab my suitcases and push them to the front door and wait for my grandparents to open it. Grandad unlocks it and carries my bags inside "remember it?" Grandma asks as I look around "yeah, it hasn't changed one bit" they both smile "do you want anything like a drink or some food?" "I'm alright actually. I might go to bed I'm so tired" grandad carries one suitcase and grandma carries my other suitcase "this was your mum's room" he says and opens the door pulling the bags in "oh yeah, I remember mum telling me about it a little" I walk over to the fire place and look at the photos in the frames and the toys aswell. "Aww she was so cute" I say picking up the photo to look at it more clearly, mum when she was about five or six "she definitely was. Have you seen these?" Grandma picks up two more and holds them out for me. I put my one back and take them both from her, one of mum pregnant with me and the other me and her when I was four. Tears blur my vision and grandma pulls me into her "you look so much like her, especially now" I choke of my tears "I do. She must have been around thirty weeks with me there aswell". I put the photos back and look out the window at the dark field "you'll see it better tomorrow when it's light. We'll let you sleep now, do you need any help unpacking?" "I'm alright but thank you" they both smile "night kiddo" "goodnight" they close the door on their way out.
I unpack my bag and then go into the bathroom and brush my teeth and wash my face. I can feel my mum everywhere in this house which is a little creepy, not going to lie. I get into bed and pull the duvet over me and video call Lizzie "hey" "hi, how's the jetlag?" She giggles making me frown "not funny and not good" she laughs and lays on her side "did you make it back okay?" "Yeah, I'm now in bed. Mums everywhere in this house" she smiles softly "that's a good thing right?" I shrug and look at the pictures on the mantle "look at this" I get out of bed and pick up the photo where mums pregnant with me "look how much I look like her babe. My hairs the same, even my bump is the same" I tell her and show her my bump so she can remember "okay, that is a little weird". I get back into bed and hold the camera next to me "can you sing a lullaby? Baby's awake and I want to sleep" "yeah of course" "they want their mama and I want her too" she smiles softly "you'll see me tomorrow and I'll give the baby as many hugs and kisses as they want".
I woke up to the sound of pigeons which is extremely different to Los Angeles. I have a little morning stretch and pull the covers down so that my bump is free "good morning" I whisper rubbing circles and then sit up. I get out of bed and walk over to the window, morning mist covers the end with the water from last night on the windows. It's so quiet. I quickly plug my phone in from last night and go downstairs "good morning, is anybody up yet?" I look in all the rooms and grandma and grandad aren't there. I put the kettle on and make two coffees and a hot chocolate for myself "hey what's up with your this morning? Stop kicking mummy" I poke my stomach but they still carry on so I huff. I look out the window holding the mug in my hands when the front door opens "oh there you guys are, I made coffees" grandma walks in first and the grandad and the Lizzie. I put my mug on the side and smile widely "I hope that's not a coffee" Lizzie says taking her shoes off "no" she walks over to me and kisses my forehead "I thought you'd still be in bed" I shake my head "I wasn't allowed to" she smiles softly and brings me into a hug "you feel asleep last night aswell" I nod "I did. Do you want some?" I pick my mug up and hold it out for her "it's not coffee" she sniffs it "no it's not. Maybe I'll have a little" I watch her take a few sips and then she puts it back down "that's very nice". I wipe the chocolate around her lips away with my thumbs and the grandma and grandad their coffees "thanks kiddo" "I'm going to get dressed. Coming?' Lizzie shrugs and follows me up the stairs.
I open the door to mum's room and push Lizzie in, she laughs and pulls me in by my wrist "hey I could have fallen over" I giggle "you didn't, I caught you" I smile and put her hands on my stomach "they've been like that all morning. You need to sort your kid out" "why's it always my kid when it's annoying and then our kid if it being good?" I shrug and take my pajama top off "I don't know, you tell me". Lizzie smiles seeing the top half of my body and starts sucking on my collarbone "hey!" I giggle and shuffle back to sit on the bed "I was going to get dressed honey". She straddles my lap and pushes me back so Im laying down "you can still get dressed, just after this" I roll my eyes and play with her baby hairs "your making my heart rate increase which isn't what is supposed to happen in the morning" she sits up and smiles "I'll get you some clothes" she clambers off my and rummaged around in my suitcases "jesus, how many clothes do you need?' she asks "well I don't know which ones fit me and which don't do I brought a lot". I sit up and brush my hair "lily I know it's not possible but I would like to bring our baby up in England a little bit" she looks at me through the mirror "how's it not possible?" "Because we live in Los Angeles and the baby with be born in our house. It's a long flight for a child" she smiles softly "well when they're older we can fly here or the baby could be born here" I turn around "but your familys home is in America and so is Scarlett. I didn't want them to be born here, well I do because the hospitals are free and all that kinda stuff but most of our family is in LA" her arms wrap around my stomach "I think our baby should be brought up in England too. See where their mommy lived" I pat her hand "it's a hard decision".
