Can We Love? {ENHYPEN JAKE} 🦋

"YOU'RE NOT A NARCISSIST?" -THIRTY FOUR

Part 34

[ Princy's pov ]

I feel like an idiot after confessing something I shouldn't have, at least not to Sunghoon. He always had hopes of me loving him, more than a best friend, but I was sure that I would like to treasure him as a friend than to argue and blame each other for the rest of our lives.

I feel like killing myself, not only because whom I love, loves someone else but to make Sunghoon feel even worse. He doesn't deserve this kind of heart break at all. But has anyone won over love, ever?

Not having the guts to face him, I sigh. I'm sure he won't be disappointed but surprised. All I need is him, my very own Hoon but I can't be selfish to let him treat my wounds when he is injured himself.

I've been crying ever since I heard Jake say those three not-so-important yet heartfelt words to someone else. It's completely different than what I thought about. I didn't even get the chance to make him fall for him, because he was already so down for Lia.

I should've stepped back when he said that he has lingering feelings for her. But I was crazy! Crazy with the fact, I love him so much. He made me feel things with bare minimum. We never had any long interactions, but whatever I had with him, it was enough!

Maybe not for him.

I feel so stupid. Do all the one siders feel the same? Stupid in love? I mean we all should be looking for the person who loves us, who's willing to fight for us, as we do. But we keep tailing the person who doesn't even know that we are falling for them.

I am supposed to shower Hoon with all the love but I'm still hoping for...

"Are you sure?" I break the trance, and look at him. I was right, he was emotionless. His eyes hold package of questions he want to bombard me with but he's holding back, for my sake.

"I wish I wasn't Hoon." I laugh at my state.

"Why him though? I've got better friends you know?" He stood just beside me while holding the railing.

"I didn't knew him or your friends until I actually met him, so don't blame me. You should've told me you've got "better" friends. I must or mustn't have liked them but would've had options to choose." I snort at the choice of my own words. He snickered as well.

"But seriously, why him out of all?" It made me drop my smile because seriously, Why him? Why it has to be him?

"Was it love at first sight? Or was it the time we both won the challenge and felt so happy just by knowing each other's name?

I don't remember Hoon but it just happened. His actions spoke to me. As silly as it sounds or it is, but I fell for how he was in love with Lia, all this time. I had a different feel, watching him fall in love.

I forgot what it indicates. I was creating my own disappointment. I should not feel sad over this because I should've been alert. I should've known what it meant to watch him fall in love with Lia. I was stupi-" he shushed me by pulling me in for a soft hug.

"Don't ever say you were or are stupid, you're not. You didn't do this intentionally. Love is never intentional Gold, and if it is intentional, it is never love. You did what your heart said. Don't blame and punish yourself.