on the edge // hyunlix

23 ; last

Ah, it's the next morning – in university again, of course.

Felix is alone – skipping lessons to keep his sanity while the other three are ignoring everything only to giggle around and get scolded.

It's boring, it's plain, and it almost feels like the second time...

But he can't, that's so oblivious of him.

But if it's just the last time...

The single time and- he'd be done, no more.

Well, he didn't necessarily fully promise. Right?

Fully as in – with his whole head, meaning he won't utter to do it, ever. Not again.

He did promise, though.

Promises break, with chance.

Is it really that resistless?

Is that hard to hold back?

It's- really not a small tumble, the lightest fall.

He's been falling this whole time, so it won't matter.

Last time. Last single time. Last fall.

It's painful. But manageable. A few times, you get the hang of it. Although it's unfortunate to get the hang of.

Unfortunate, painful, hard, but hated the most. Hated and stupid.

It's idiotic to do this – it really is.

Well, it's just supposed that Felix has been idiotic this whole time, then.

Ah, although, if you properly think it through, it's not his fault.

Alright.

It's fun while it lasted.

Now he's counting down for himself again. Unregretfully interesting.

3.

Almost like an overgrown habit.

2.

That doesn't stop. No matter how hard you try.

1-

Never.

There's never enough time to get to one.

That's good... isn't it?

It feels better than good when he's always landing in the same arms.

In a tight, warm, worried embrace.

"Why do I always end up in your arms instead?"

The other sits down with the younger in his arms at that.

"I'm worried for you." Hyunjin whispered as Felix sat infront of him, "Is it too much?"

He questions. And it's rather silent.

It sounds like Hyunjin feels guilty about it. But he shouldn't. He shouldn't feel guilty for saving Felix's life this many times.

"It's not, I-"

"Didn't you promise not to. But you still did. You always do." Hyunjin stated, inhaling softly as tears welled up in his eyes, slowly but surely.

"Jin... I promise I'll keep it now." Felix uttered, pressing his forehead against Hyunjin's and wiping his tears.

"I- I can... trust you this time? A promise – you better keep it." Hyunjin cried out, holding Felix's arms gently.

"I'll keep it." Felix whispered, holding out his pinky.