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Zeal
I write when life leaves me sore and aching, I write when nothing makes sense, I write when I am confused and lost.
I write when I want to capture the sun hitting my shoulders, I write when today is something I want to remember, I write when everything is as it should be.
When I am not writing I am thinking about it, each moment of my life turned into a poem, each moment later described with a metaphor.
Writing is a lens I view the world through, writing is how I make sense of the senseless.
As I come close to finishing this book I find myself wondering about the next one to come.
It seems that no matter where I find myself writing follows me.
Zen
Nothing makes sense. I cannot put words to it.
I don't know what I'm doing or where I am going, I don't know what I want or what I should want.
Everything is slipping through the cracks, I am lost.
For a moment I step out of my body and I ask God to guide me, because I don't know what to do and I don't know where to go.
I ask god to help me be the person I should be, I ask god to help me understand what I should be.
I tell God that whatever he wants is what I want. God I don't know what I should be, God I don't know what I want.
I have dreams but I am not sure they are worth chasing, I don't know what it's like to be what I want to be.
I tell him about the bad things I have done, he already knows what I did, but maybe saying it out loud will help.
I tell God that I never want to be like that ever again, I tell God that doing those things scared me, I ask God to make me a better man than I was yesterday.
Zenith
When I started this book I wanted to get better.
I wanted to finally make sense of things, to learn from all of this, to stop aching.
I wasn't sure I was going to get there.
Do I want it badly enough? Am I really going to find my way through this? Am I willing to take the newer, much more difficult way?
It has been hard, and at times I didn't know if I had it in me, but I feel as if I have arrived.
I have found what I've been looking for.
I found the relief I wanted, I found.
YOU ARE READING
Sincerely October
PoetryThis poetry book was written having multiple narratives, lots of happiness and healing, lots of aching and low points. I choose the title "sincerely October" to capture being authentic.
