As Long As I'm Here // Billie Eilish

Nosebleed

TW!
This chapter contains physical abuse, mental abuse, blood and mentions of death.

The next day

My mom called me earlier and was really upset because I didn't answer her last night when she called me. It was a couple of years since I moved out but some of my stuff are still in their house. She told me that if I don't come and get them today she will burn them. She literally does this just because she knows she has that power over me... Luckily Billie was outside with Shark when mom called me so I didn't have to explain everything to her. Sadly it's only 2 days left until Billie flies back to LA.

"Billie, I need to go to my parents house today for an hour or two. You can stay here if you want to or hang out with Finneas and Claudia. I know that you only stay for two more days but when I'm done we can hang out, and tomorrow too of course!"

"You don't have to explain yourself, it's okay. I'll stay here, you can leave Ruby to me if you want to. Do you mind me asking why you need to go there?"

"Um, I just need to pick up some things kind of. But no worries!" I tell her trying to sound convincing.

"Okay, but can you please promise to call me if somethings happens or you feel unsafe"

"I promise lovely" I say and pecks her on the lips.

When I get there my mom is already outside, she looks really angry. Oh boy, this is going to be a long day... I think to myself.

"Hi mom" I try to say as calmly as possible.

"All of your stuff is in this bag. Take them and leave"

"Oh, thank you for packing everything for me. Are you sure you got everything? Can I just go inside and look real quick if somethings missing?"

"Don't you trust me? Your own mother!" She says and glares at me.

"Yeah, no, sorry. I, I didn't mean it like that.."

"Go inside and be quick" she tells me and gestures at the door.

I go inside to my old room, there's nothing in there. But I remember that I hid a little box a long time ago when my grandma died. It contains pictures of her and her old necklace. I need to get that box without her noticing me. Mom hated my grandma, or her mom. I think it was because she was the only one who knew about the abuse my mom put me through. Grandma was really special to me, we had a bond that I've never experienced with anyone before in my life and probably never will. When she died mom wouldn't let me have even pictures of her, because she hated her so much. So that's why I hid the box. I need to get it out without her noticing or otherwise she's gonna go insane.
I grab it quickly and puts it in my pocket. I stand up to turn around but right there is mom. Shit.

"What is that?" She says coldly and looks at my pocket.

"Oh, um, it's nothing. Just a box" I lie.

"Show it to me"

"But, it's just a wooden box mom it's-" she cuts me of.

"Show it to me right now or I will beat you up"

I get really shocked, she has never been physical with me before. I can't tell if it's just a threat or if she's being serious. I take out the small wooden box from my pocket and shows it to her. She takes it out of my hands and opens it exposing the pictures of grandma and her necklace. I feel my heart drop as I see her angry face. If it was possible for a human to let out smoke from their nostrils when they were angry she would have done that right now.