As Long As I'm Here // Billie Eilish

The ticket

TW! This chapter contains light talk about mental abuse.

I got it, I actually got a ticket to see my favorite person in the whole world. I can't believe it! And if that's not the best part I also got a meet and greet ticket. I literally had to give up my savings in order to be able to afford it. But it's definitely going to be worth it! I have been promising myself for years that if Billie ever comes to Sweden I will buy a meet and greet ticket, regardless of what it costs. I need to meet the person who helped me get through so much. So here I am, poor but happy!

The concert is in 2 weeks and I'm not gonna lie, I am already a bit nervous. None of my friends really listens to Billie or likes her the way I do (well it would be strange if they did, cause I like her an insane amount) so I have to go to the concert alone. I am nervous about how I'm gonna react to see her and meeting her, like I know I'm gonna cry and all but I hope I don't like, act stupid or anything?
What if-

My thoughts got interrupted by my phone ringing, it's my mom.

"Hi mom!"

"Hi Tuva! Is everything okey? Did you get a ticket to that concert you have been talking about?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Yes I got it, finally! I have been waiting for years for this and now it's finally happening, I'm so happy!"

"I can hear that, I'm happy that you're happy"

"Can I leave Ruby (Ruby is my dog) to you before I leave for the concert? In that case I will leave her in the morning because I want to be there early so can be in the front row. The concert ends at 9:30 pm I think so I will head home directly after that and come get her"

"That's fine, she can be with us that day. Oh, I have to go your father is calling me. Bye!

Before I even get the chance to say thank you or good bye the call ended. Well, well, at least she said that she can have Ruby so I don't have to worry about that.

2 weeks later, the day of the concert.

My mom is calling, I pick up.

"Hi mom I know that I'm a few minutes late but I am on my way to you with Ruby right now!"

"Actually you can't leave Ruby here today"

"What? Why?! You told me two weeks ago that I could and it was no problem"

"Yes but I didn't think she would be here for so long, I thought you would just leave her a couple of hours and then come back!"

"But mom, I LITERALLY told you that I need to leave her in the morning and you promised me that it was okey"

"But now I have changed my mind"

She says it in that disgusting self conscious way, knowing that she still has the power over me to do that kind of things. But why on earth today?? The only day when I really needs her help. Ah, fuck. I hate that I need her help. Well I will have to deal with the consequences later. It will not be fun but it's worth it because I am going to see Billie. I can't miss that chance.

"I'm sorry mom but I really need to leave her to you today, I'm there in a minute actually. I can't do it any other way, you have to babysitt her, or dogsitt or what ever you should call it"

I try to make a light joke in hope to get a not so angry response.

"You are driving me crazy right now Tuva! You always get it your way, nobody else is important to you! You are spoiled and you just think about yourself. I am sick of your shit. Leave Ruby here and come get her AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Do you understand me?"

She always does like this, I don't know why I'm still so naive thinking she will change. She's been like this my whole life, over 20 years. It's actually quite impressive how she can be so manipulative. I mean, manipulating people is really not an easy thing to do and she has done it with success for over 20 years. Congratulations to her I guess. I think for myself trying to make a joke about it.

30 minutes later, on the bus.

Finally I am on my way. I don't know what to do with myself, I feel like I am already all over the place and I'm not even there yet! Oh my, this is going to be the best day of my life.
Fuck, I think I forgot to put on my waterproof mascara. I'm gonna look like shit, fuck! I need to try my hardest to not cry at the meet and greet, I don't want her to see me when I look like shit with mascara all over my face. I can let it out later at the concert, then it doesn't matter. It will be so many people there so she won't even see my face.

I'm sorry if that chapter was too short and didn't contain so much about Billie yet. It was my first ever chapter writing and I really am a beginner on this so I don't know how long they should be 😅. The next chapter will hopefully come out later today and it will contain much moore Billie!
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