As Long As I'm Here // Billie Eilish

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TW!
This chapter contains mental abuse.

Our bags are packed and we are sitting in the taxi towards the airport, we are flying to Sweden. At first I was unsure if I wanted to but after I have talked things through with Billie I decided that I wanted to. It will be a quick visit though, we are just picking up the last of my things that I want to take with me in to my new life. When I left Sweden to go to LA with Billie I was in such a hurry so I just grabbed the most essential things. I mean it really wasn't planned from neither my or Billie's side. But I'm more then grateful it happened, otherwise I wouldn't be able to stand here today and say that I'm about to move in to a beautiful house with the girl of my dreams. Isn't that insane?! I know.

It's early as hell and still dark outside. I'm sure I speak for the both of us when I say that if it weren't for the flight we need to catch, we both had been sleeping right now. I walk beside Billie, holding her hand, towards the gate. I don't even know what I'm feeling. It feels so strange to fly back to what once was home.

"You know you can talk to me" Billie interrupts my thoughts.

"What?" I say caught of guard.

"What's going on in that beautiful head of yours?"

"I really don't know, it feels weird. You know after everything that's happened. I don't even know how I'm feeling" I say.

It's not a lie though, I really don't know how I feel. Am I scared? Angry? Sad? Emotional? Anxious? I have no idea.

"It's okay love, I totally understand you. I think you're a bit overwhelmed. We'll sort it out, we always do" she says and squeezes my hand.

14 hours later.

After a long flight we arrived in Stockholm Sweden and took a taxi back to my old house. We stand outside with our bags looking at the door. I sigh before I put the keys in the keyhole and finally unlock the door.

It's dark inside, and a bit cold. It feels so untouched since I left. We step inside and put our bags on the floor. I walk around in the small house, looking at everything. Everything looks just the same but also so different.

"Can you actually imagine this is how it all started? It's fucking crazy" Billie says.

"It literally feels like it was yesterday, but at the same time it feels like we've known each other forever"

"It's so crazy. Do you remember the first night here?"

"Oh my god yeah, you were so nervous!"

"As if you weren't! You were so shocked when I told you I wanted to sleep in your bed that you almost didn't answer me" she says and we both bursts out laughing again.

"But here we are!" I say and throw my hands in the air.

"Here we are, and I'm so happy to be yours. Happier than ever" she says and winks.

"Stop it with your cheesy song references"

We are really tired after the long flight so we decided on going to bed early so we can effectively pack all my things tomorrow. I must admit, it's pretty intense to fly that many hours.

"What's that? I didn't think about that the last time I was here" Billie says and points to something in the corner of my roof.