As Long As I'm Here // Billie Eilish

Sick

TW!
Don't read this chapter if you have emetophobia (fear of vomit).

2 days later.

Billie is doing a talkshow today, it wasn't really planned but when Ellen DeGeneres called and asked if she wanted to be on The Ellen Show she of course said yes. It's just supposed to be a quick 10 minutes interview so it won't be a big deal. We are stopping by at a cafe to grab some lunch before going to the studio where The Ellen Show is shot.

"I'm not that hungry, I'll just have some water" Billie says when we look at the menu.

"But you didn't eat any breakfast today? You need to eat something before going on The Ellen Show" I tell her.

"I just have a really bad stomach ache, I'm probably gonna start my period soon"

"Okay, I get it. But you need to at least eat something small. Do you think you could manage to eat like sandwich and a smoothie?"

"Yeah probably. I'll try" she tells me.

When we have gotten our food we sit down outside at a table in the sun. Billie got a gluten free vegan toast and a smoothie and I got a sallad with beetroots and vegan cheese. It's a quite  late lunch today so I'm really hungry. But Billie seems to struggle with getting her food down.

"It's fucking cold outside" she says and puts on the cap of her hoodie.

"Cold? We are literally sitting in the sun" I question her.

"But I feel cold" she says and takes another bite of her sandwich.

"You're not starting to get sick are you?" I ask her.

"Nah, it's just my period"

When we arrive at the studio Billie looks super tired already. Maybe the last couple of days have been tiring. She sits in the chair to get her makeup done before entering the show. They just put on some light makeup to cover her tired eyes. I mean she's a natural beauty so she doesn't even need any makeup.
When she's done she walks up to behind the stage and I get to stay in the green room and watch her on a big screen.
When she walks out on stage and appears on the screen everyone cheers for her. She waves at the audience and gives Ellen a hug before sitting down.
I'm not gonna lie, she looks really tired and kinda pale, even with makeup on. Poor girl, I didn't understand she was that tired.

When the show is done she walks off stage and to the green room where I'm waiting.

"You did so good baby! As always" I tell her and greet her with a hug.

"Thank you angel. It didn't feel that good. I have a horrible stomach ache and feels really tired. Was that noticeable on the show?" She asks me.

"Not at all" I kind of lie to her.

"Well, we should get home quickly so you can go to bed then" I add.

4 hours later.

"I'm going to bed now. I don't feel very good" she says and walks up to me where I'm sitting on the couch to wrap her arms around me.