But Not Me (GxG)

BNM-5

Noelle Canarette

Minsan talaga may mga pangyayari na hindi natin inaasahan. May times naman na alam na natin na mangyayari but we still find ourselves caught off guard. Tulad ngayon alam ko mangyayari pero nakakaramdam pa rin ako ng takot tho very light lang parang kagat lang ng langgam. And, of course, I wouldn't show it. Revealing any weaknesses is not an option for me, especially not to my father.

​Kailangan kong tiisin 'to or else I might end up living with my grandma. The mere thought of that scares me more than anything. Losing the chance to see her again is something I fear deeply.

Nakakailang hakbang pa lang ako papasok mula sa gate ng school I am instantly greeted by piercing gazes and cutting remarks that wound almost as deeply as their sharp tongues. Sorry to them, magaling ata ang trainer ko. They are nothing compared to my dad.

It seems like I have become the talk of the town once again. Ah, the perks of being in the limelight. Grabe nakakatuwa. Ang effort pag-usapan ako. Dapat ang mga ganitong effort hindi sinasayang.

Alam na alam ko kung ano ang pinagu-usapan nila. Hindi ko kailangan hulaan pa. They're referring to my previous relationship with a professor at the school I went to before.

While some like to chat quietly, others prefer to openly criticize and mock. It appears that my decisions and actions have once again captured their attention, for better or worse. But instead of allowing their unforgiving judgments to affect me, I decided to respond with a confident smile. Sorry sa kanila mali sila ng target. Hindi sila makakakuha ng reaction sa'kin na ikakatuwa nila.

"Yikes! Kadiri dyke na nga professor pa nais." Rinig ko sa isang grupo. "Hindi na siya nahiya. May gana pa talaga siyang ngumiti?"

"Siguro kaya napatalsik yan."

"You're wrong! Baka kaya siya nakaabot sa ganitong level dahil inaakit niya mga proffesor!"

"Ang cheap ng mga prof do'n ah. Sa ganyan lang sila pumapatol."

Marami pa ako naririnig pero yan lang ang pumasok sa tenga ko dahil hindi na ako nag pay attention pa sa kanila. Mauubos lang ang energy ko.

As I made my way to the classroom, I remembered Sage and the rest. For sure, isa rin silang pinagu-usapan ako at nagsisisi na sila na kinaibigan nila ang tulad ko. I smiled at that thought.

Pare-parehas lang naman sila. Once the name is tainted, they will simply leave you behind.

As I entered the classroom, I could hear the whispers and murmurs of my classmates surrounding me. Their voices filled the air, but my attention was no longer drawn to them. I had reached a point where I could no longer pay attention to what others were saying, as it drained my energy.

"Noelle!" Nakakailang hakbang pa lang ako ng salubungin ako nila Sage. "Don't listen to them." Saad niya tsaka ako hinila papunta sa upuan namin sa harap.

"We don't believe them," Tiffany chimed in, a slight smile on her face.

"It's true," I replied coolly, taking a seat before anyone else.

"We don't care." Humagikgik naman si Sage. "We're the same naman."

Hindi ko alam ang ire-react ko sa kanila dahil hindi ko in-expect na ganito pa rin sila sa'kin. Akala ko kasi isa sila sa mga pinag uusapan ako.