But Not Me (GxG)

BNM-28

Two years ago, my love left this world, and it's been incredibly hard to live without her. My life, once full of joy and color, has become dull and empty. Char lang...

Quentin Leilani Agape

I hate red

With every ounce of my being, I despise red. While it may symbolize love, passion, and connection for some, it only conjures up a haunting scent of blood, suffering, and desolation within me.

Once upon a time, my life was a brilliant canvas painted in warm yellow hues, radiating brightness and hope. But as time passed, a miserable shade of blue crept into the image—not the serene blue of a clear sky, but the deep—haunting blue of the unfathomable ocean deep.

Happiness, contentment, the embrace of an almost loving family, and the very core of life itself all rested comfortably in my palms. However, in a dreadful twist of fate, they slid from my desperate grasp in the blink of an eye.

"Love, can we please postpone our plans for tonight?" I asked my fiancé Denmark na kasalukuyang nag-aayos ng kanyang suot.

He looked handsome in a crisp white shirt and a pair of tailored pants. Papunta kami ngayon sa side niya to celebrate my pregnancy. It was a bit belated, considering I was already six months along, at ngayon lang namin sinabi sa pamilya niya.

Denmark is not only the love of my life but also the man I will soon call my husband, once our first baby is born. I was just nineteen when our paths crossed during our college years. After we graduated, something magical happened between us, and it blossomed into a beautiful relationship.

My best friend, Avany, was initially upset when I shared the news with her na buntis ako. She's not against Denmark, but being pregnant is. However, she eventually came around and became a pillar of support. My family, on the other hand, never quite warmed up to Denmark due to his social standing. But he never ceased to prove that he was deserving of my love. He showed me what a true gentleman he is, and he reassured me that he could provide for both me and our future child.

Gusto niya akong pakasalan, ngunit sinabi ko na ilaan muna namin ang pera para sa panganganak ko. He respected my decision and agreed to wait until the time was right.

"Love naman, hindi lang 'yan ang pupuntahan natin doon, pati na rin ang kaarawan mo. Ayaw ko lang na magmukmok tayo dito. Special day mo mamayang gabi. Gusto rin kasi ni mama na salubungin ang kaarawan ng kanilang magiging manugang." he said, approaching me and embracing me gently, mindful of my protruding belly. "Pagbigyan na natin sila mama? Excited lang sila sa'yo."

Kahit na gusto kong tumanggi dahil hindi maganda ang pakiramdam at balisa ako, I realized he was right. After all, it was only recently that his family discovered our relationship.

"Okay, but let's not stay out too late, alright? And please don't be stupid! Wag kang masyadong mabait."

"Yes, I promise," he replied, his eyes filled with love and sincerity.

He always had a hard time saying no to everything, always saying yes, even when it wasn't in his best interest. He had a kind heart and wanted to please everyone around him, but this often led to him being taken advantage of. He would go to great lengths to do things for others, neglecting his own well-being in the process.

Our canvas was painted yellow on its own. It represented the happiness and joy we shared together. We were so happy na salubungin ang birthday ko. Watching them gather around me, singing with heartfelt voices, was truly a magical moment. It was one of those instances that I knew would forever be etched in my memory.