The Days That Count

32. The Day Of Kissing

JORDAN'S POV

Baek and I got invited by Connor to Elianna's place this Saturday. They said it's a game event. She has a stock of games like monopoly, katan, poker and others. Honestly, I didn't feel like going but Baek made me. He kept bugging me how it was gonna be fun. I haven't been feeling well since this whole drama with Yvonne and Heavenly, especially because these nasty words spread about what Heavenly did. I just can't stand people talking about her in that way and I used every opportunity I had to kill the rumors.

Besides that, Heavenly and I have been awkward around each other. It's like we keep avoiding one another, not encouraging contact. At first, I was disappointed and didn't know how to approach her anymore, but now the anger and frustration dissolved and I am just left feeling sad that we are not hanging out like before. I even start to feel guilty because I was purposefully distancing myself from her because of Yvonne's insecurity and all for nothing; Yvonne still did what she did and we broke up, regardless of how hard I tried to please her. Now I am left with no Yvonne and with ruins of my and Heavenly's friendship. Somehow, my chest hurts. I want to make up with her and act like before. She must have been really upset that night and got overly emotional so she asked me that, and hugged me. I got ahead of myself thinking she liked me in any way more than friendly. Why did I even think of that? I'm such a moron. I liked her for too long and she kept dating Maxx and openly showing me she has no interest in me, and still I was here thinking she was trying to make a move on me that night.

Her and Maxx broke up. I honestly thought that I'd be more happy to hear that considering my history with the guy and his ex girlfriend but I was just left feeling empty and sad. I was sad that the break up was so ugly and hard on her. I started to wonder even if that jerk treated her right to begin with. She's not someone to jump so much out of character if not triggered badly. I'm just having trouble understanding the way my girlfriend and I broke up, let alone Heavenly and Maxx. I couldn't sleep or eat well. I only studied and attended class these days.

Baek-Hyun and I walk out of our apartments. I glance back at the girls' door, wondering what they are up to. I haven't seen Heavenly in two days. I get a hand on my shoulder, "You thinking about Heavenly?"

I give Baek an annoyed look and direct my gaze at thw stairs which we step on, "No. "

"I never got to ask, why aren't you speaking to her? I noticed you two are not talking, " he says as we open the door of my car.

I get in and put in the keys, "I'm not doing it on purpose. It's just the way it is. I don't feel like seeing anyone these days. "

"Yeah, but you're especially against seeing her. Don't you think it's time for you guys to have a talk?"

"Talk? ", I huff and start the engine, "What talk? This is just a rough period for us both. We'll be hanging out again soon. There's no need to have an official talk about why we aren't hanging out. "

Baek buckles up his seatbelt and starts to munch on some chips he brought out with him. It's five in afternoon so everything around us is bright and warm. I drive safely through the narrow streets.

"Jordan, don't you still have feelings for Heavenly?", he suddenly asks.

It makes my head feel hot immediately. I grip the steering wheel harder, "Why are you giving me pep talk? Just talk about a sports game or whatever. "

"Do you think Yvonne felt insecure because she noticed you treated Heavenly in a special way? Maybe she wasn't as crazy as you thought, even though she is a bad person. Do you want to be with Heavenly after all?"