"I stabbed him" that was just repeating in Rohit's head. And all Rohit could remember past words of Virat.
"Ro, he is my childhood friend. He is a good person, once you get to know him, you will like him. Trust me on this please. I want you both to be friends na, you are important to me Ro. I can't see you like this with him" requested Virat.
"Virat stabbed his childhood friend? Is he joking? Is he serious? Oh God!" thought Rohit looking at Virat who was arranging his medicines.
"Virat" called Rohit not able to think more on it.
"Yes?"
"Sit here for a sec" Rohit said and Virat sat down thinking Rohit needs any help.
"Tell me, what do u mean stab or kill? U stabbed ur childhood friend? Are you serious right now? Why did you do that? It was just an accident" Rohit said completely forgetting that how was their equation now. For now he was just worried about Virat.
"How do u know it was an accident?" Virat asked instead.
Rohit looked at him trying to understand what he was trying to do here but it was so difficult to understand Virat's expressions.
Rohit was silent on that, he didn't answer anything.
Virat got up, "Anyway what's done is done", he said robotically.
"Virat" called Rohit again in a tone which made Virat sigh and sit again. Rohit was glad that he still agreed to him if not anyone else.
Rohit was looking at Virat then hesitantly kept his hand on Virat's and asked in a tone which Rohit would use 1 year back for Virat, "Vi? What is going on with you?", he asked softly calling him Vi.
Virat looked up immediately. Rohit saw a flicker of emotion in Virat's eyes. Virat looked down in a sec and saw their hands.
Virat's hands were shaking, when he was trying to hold Rohit's hand. Rohit gripped it which made Virat loose a little control over his emotions and a lone tear tickled down his eye.
"What's wrong?" Rohit asked in a quiet voice.
Virat just nodded his head in no looking down and holding onto Rohit's hand. Rohit literally could feel so much emotion coming through Virat that it was as if that simple hold was keeping the emotion alive in him.
He felt really bad about it so he didn't force Virat to say anything but let him take his time to adjust what was going on, whatever emotion was coming back to him.
"When was the last time you went home?" asked Rohit after 15 mins.
"8 months back" Virat answered. He didn't know why he did that but he knew what control Rohit had over him.
"Why?" Rohit asked again.
"I just couldn't - I - didn't" Virat just couldn't complete his sentence. There were no words with which he could express what he was feeling. What he had felt all this time, there were just no words.
He was feeling so helpless, as Rohit was talking to him normally after so many days, he called him Vi which still felt weird. But he wanted to say something, what if he doesn't and Rohit distances himself from Virat again.
"Virat, Vi" Rohit called noticing his breathing get quicken. He saw Virat was lost in thoughts and the thoughts looked scary because Virat was breathing unevenly and shivering at that.
Virat took his hand back from his hold and left the room.
Rohit felt helpless as he couldn't go after him. At that moment he hated Virat for making him feel like this.
One side he was feeling bad for Virat and other side he was angry at him for making him feel helpless and crippled again.
Virat entered his room breathing heavily. He went through his bag and searched for something. Once he found it, he gulped it down with water and slide down the bed on the floor to take effect on his body.
"Vi, what's going on?" That soft voice was ringing in Virat's head but it was so difficult to differentiate that whether it was real or hallucinations.
Because this soft voice of Rohit was always imaginary. So now when the effect was slowly taking place on his body, he was thinking whether it was his hallucinations again or it was his Ro.
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