Acceptance heals everything

Part 67. Emotional Reflections

"Now you get some sleep, you need it Veer", Jaddu said making him lay down and kept caressing his head till he sleeps.

KL came inside and took Jaddu's place, as soon as he kept hand on Virat's, Virat held it tight in his sleep as if he knew it was Rah, his Rah.

Jaddu saw that, he could not help but smile adoring their bond. He left the room, checked on Rohit, he was sleeping and Jassi, Shreyas sitting by his side.

He went to the lawn only to see Ash, Bhuvi and Jinks were already waiting for him.

"Coffee?", Ash offered.

"Much needed", Jaddu replied taking it from him.

"I am exhausted", Jaddu said taking a seat beside Ash who put his arm around his shoulder, "massage bhi de de Ashley", he said jokingly.

Ash just removed his hand off to which Jaddu laughed at his annoyed expression.

"How is Virat?", Jinks asked once Jaddu had his coffee.

"Weak, miserable, trapped in his own mind, not able to grasp anything around him-- keeps worrying about Rohit and then KL, feels guilty of literally anything and everything"

"And Rohit?"

"Not able to handle the condition he is in, constantly keeps worrying about Virat and then adding upto that guilty about destroying everything and by that he means friendships"

"And you? How are you?", they asked as he seemed in daze thinking about Virat and Rohit. They wanted him to say it out loud how did he feel.

"trying to figure out how I actually feel. I genuinely don't think I am hurt or even angry anymore. If I speak frankly they both have suffered enough for the mistakes they did, So now I just want them to be okay. In my whole life I would have never experience this many emotions that these two idiots make me feel, my teaspoon range of emotion has converted into a vessel"

Jaddu looked at them as he said it and they bursted out laughing on that.

"Oh how I miss those two with us here", Bhuvi said wiping the tear from corner of his eye.

"I cannot believe yet that Virat, our Virat took that step", Jinks said not able to keep it to himself anymore.

"Yes it is heartbreaking even to imagine but we have no idea about what he is feeling, what is going on in his head. He is seeking therapy which tells us how sensitive everything it is for him", said Ash thinking about how KL said he is seeking therapy. 

In Virat's room, 

Virat was holding KL's hand tightly and KL was sitting beside him caressing his hair as he had woke two times due to the pain. 

KL could not help but stare those bandages which were wrapped around Virat's waist. He so wished he could have stopped Virat that day, he would be okay not completely but he wouldn't have relapsed this badly. He was so guilty of not acting quickly that day. He should have stopped Virat. 

His thoughts were broken by Virat's painful groan, "Bhai", he called softly to which Virat opened his eyes. 

"It's paining", whispered Virat tiredly. 

"I know it will pass, I am sorry but I cannot give you more pain killers Virat. You have already had 2 and it's only evening", KL said caressing his hair to calm him down. 

Virat was breathing heavily, "help me to Ro's room please", he said and KL did exactly that knowing Virat would be at peace with Rohit's presence. 

KL supported Virat to walk and made him sit on the other side of the bed. Rohit was awake and talking to Jassi and Shrey when they walked in. 

"What happened?", Rohit asked seeing Virat exhausted and breathing heavily. 

KL made him sit properly, "He is in pain and wanted to be with you, I cannot give more painkillers then prescribed so he has to tolerate the pain", he explained thought he was feeling really sad to see Virat in pain but he didn't have any option as he could not take any risk. 

"Ro, it is paining so much", said Virat as tears made through his eyes. Jaddu and others also came inside only to see Virat crying due to the pain. 

The juniors left from there to make some meal arrangements, KL could not watch more of that and he knew Virat would be okay as they were there, the seniors. 

"Vi, try not to think of the pain please-- think something else. I am here with you, others are also here. It will pass, try to calm down", Rohit said softly. 

Jaddu got ice pack and rested it slowly on the swelling around his stomach which felt a bit better to Virat. They could see tears of relief and breathing getting normal. Rohit caressed his hair and Jaddu kept icing the swelling. 

"Really sorry for driving off like that and then that--", said Virat feeling guilty of his actions. 

Jaddu and Rohit didn't know what to say and they turned to Ash who rolled his eyes at them. 

"Virat, it's fine-- we are not angry on you. There was our fault too, we shouldn't have pushed you to that extent to share things with us", Ash said calming him down and glaring Jaddu along with Ro. It was just sometime ago he had explained them and still they were clueless now. 

"But Ash, I--", Virat began but just couldn't get himself to say things out loud. 

"But what Vi?", Rohit asked this time. 

As Rohit knew it was important that Virat speaks his feelings out loud. But again there was question, Will he speak or Can he voice out his feelings?