Acceptance heals everything

Part 68. Climbing out of Darkness

"But what Vi?", Rohit asked keeping his hand on his wanting Virat to share his feelings and what was going on in his mind. 

Virat looked up and saw everyone waiting for him to say something. But he was confused and trapped in guilt as he took that step, he didn't think of anyone, his best friend, his wife, his little one-- when did he become so selfish? Was Jaddu right all these days? Was he really selfish?

Ash gestured Rohit to talk to him, they left from there seeing Virat lost in thoughts.

Even Rohit was scared seeing Virat so zoned out that he was not even aware of what was going on.

"Vi, Virat?", Rohit held his hand gently to get him out of his thoughts. 

Virat looked at him, "What are you thinking Vi? Try sharing it with me-- just like old times", Rohit said softly. 

"I am so lost Ro", said Virat with moist eyes, "Please help me", he pleaded keeping his head in Rohit's lap. 

Though it hurt Virat to lay on the same side he was hurt but he needed his best friend, to help him and hold him. He was so lost without him, Rohit was always the one who had shown him the way out of every problem. He is just so blank at the moment, he needed his Ro. 

Rohit was shocked-- till now Virat was numb, he wasn't reacting much-- once or twice he has reacted that too to Rohit's pain but today he was asking help for himself, he didn't know whether to feel happy or sad about it. 

Rohit gently caressed his hair, "I am here Vi, I am here with you-- I will help you in every way I can, we are together in this Vi", he said softly. 

"I cannot even think anything Ro, everything is so messed up in my head-- I am tired", Virat said feeling exhausted with everything. 

Rohit didn't say anything as he knew Virat was going to say something more, he was really happy that he was sharing it with him. 

"I searched for you, I was so lost without you. I missed you so much, Rah tried to help me and I ended up hurting him. He cried because of me, I hate myself Ro", Virat cried for the very first time since everything happened. 

Rohit rubbed his back trying to calm him down but it was hardly working. 

"I just hate myself", Rohit heard Virat mumbling this for sometime, he just dozed off after sometime-- exhausted emotionally with pain and everything. 

Rohit noticed pale face of him with tears but then he saw some blood on his shirt, he lifted it up and saw the stitches were open. 

He picked up his phone and called KL in the room. 

"Call the doctor, his stitches got opened", KL immediately called Aman as he heard Rohit. He took first aid and sat infront of Rohit as Virat's head was in his lap. 

KL lifted his shirt and cleaned some blood, Aman taught him how to do it. Virat moved a little due to the pain, Rohit just caressed his hair to calm him down. 

After 15 mins, Aman arrived-- he made Virat lay on the pillow but Virat still was holding Rohit's hand tightly in his sleep not wanting to let go. 

"You should not look", Aman said to which Rohit nodded turning his face a bit, KL did the same-- Aman was right, they didn't had the courage to look at the wound. 

Aman injected Virat with medicine and then did the stitches, "it's done", Aman said and then they turned. 

"Aman, I mean if I can call you that.."

"Ofcourse Rohit bhai you can, I mean-- I am KL's friend so I know about everyone. It's okay if I call you bhai, right?"

"Yes, you can call me that. I wanted to meet Dr. Maya, I want to discuss about Virat, today I noticed something different about him. May be that will help", Rohit said as he wanted to help Virat, he had promised him. 

"Sure I will call her", Aman said and went outside to talk to Maya. KL followed him outside. 

Rohit just kept remembering how helpless Virat looked, probably the first time in his life Rohit saw Virat like that. But the positive side right now what Rohit could think was, Virat shared a bit like old times with him, that was a huge win for Rohit. 

Virat woke up after an hour, "Don't try to get up too fast-- stitches are fresh", he heard Rohit's voice. He noticed two hands helping him, it was his Rah who was helping him. 

KL helped him to drink some water which then made Virat aware of surroundings. 

"What happened?", Virat asked confused, he remembered him sleeping in Rohit's lap and crying his heart out, after that he did not remember anything-- it was all blank. 

"You pulled your stitches while laying your head in my lap", Rohit said softly. 

After 10 mins there was a knock on the door, Maya was there with Aman. 

Rohit noticed Virat holding his hand as Maya entered, "Vi, kya hua hai?", he asked in a low voice. 

"I am scared", Virat said knowing Maya will ask questions and he has to open up with things. 

Rohit understood what he meant by that, "It's okay, I am here with you. KL is there, you are not alone. Whatever it may be, we won't judge you-- I promise", he said softly. 

"Hi Virat bhai", Maya greeted him. She had come for unofficial meet, so she called him bhai which also made Virat a bit relaxed, everyone noticed that. 

Aman and KL sat on the couch, while Rohit and Virat were sitting on the bed. Maya took the chair which was at Virat's side of the bed. 

"How do you feel bhai?", she asked softly. 

"honestly, I feel lost", Virat said not looking at anyone. 

Ash, Jaddu, Jinks and Bhuvi along with Mahi followed by Shreyas and Jassi came there. They did not know about Maya being there as they just came from outside doing some works. 

"Sorry we can come later", Ash said and they were leaving but Virat's voice stopped them. 

"No, please wait", said Virat and they all turned, "please come inside", Virat said to which they looked at Maya who gestured to follow what Virat was saying. 

"What do you want Virat bhai?", Maya asked gently as Virat requested them to come inside. 

Virat looked at Rohit who was holding his hand, then at others who were patiently waiting for his answers. 

"I want to finish that conversation-- I want everyone to know what happened with me and Rohit. Once and for all, they have the right to know so and I don't think we both can handle those confrontations again and again", said Virat looking down. 

He remembered how Rohit's doctor said, he doesn't need to take stress and Jaddu said how Rohit tried to get up to stop him. He wanted this to end so that they could focus on Rohit's recovery. 

Jaddu had told him to hold on to Rohit, so he was doing the same-- for Rohit, he could just do anything. 

Everyone was shocked by that, Maya understood why he was saying that. 

"You sure?", she asked again. 

"Yes I am", Virat said holding Rohit's hand tightly.