Y/N's POV
"There's a bench. We could always move." I said
"What's the point?" She said
"You keep emphasising the fact that we're on the floor, but there's a bench, right behind you." I said
"The cold is refreshing" she shrugged
"Whatever you say" I chuckled "well- umm... Where to begin??" I asked
"We can either talk about today, or talk about what happened years ago, or both. I don't mind, I've basically just gave you my whole life story." She chuckled
"I broke it off with JiU- Minji- or whatever-" I said and curled up in discomfort, back against the wall, knees to my chest, my chin resting on them
"At least uncover your mouth" she chuckled "so I can hear you properly" she said
"I broke it off with her. We're no longer dating" I said, her expression changed into pity. I hate it. So much.
But I hate it less... at this moment in time anyways.
"Is pity still your downfall?" She asked, noticing my conflicted expression
"Not right now. Well maybe- but I can only imagine the expressions I gave you during your talk." I shrug
"Why'd you break it off if you're this distraught about it? You looked happy during the date" she said
"I was. I was so happy. Probably the happiest I've been in a while." I said "but I couldn't hang onto that. It wouldn't have been healthy no matter how you put it." I shrugged "I'd be happier, but I'd be living a lie." I said "JiU works with bad people. Really bad people." I said
"Isn't she on your team?" She asked
"She's something in between" I shrugged and she nodded "She works with these people- uhm... the people I've been after since I joined narcotics. Her real name is Minji and she's some sort of undercover gang member. I fell for her. I fell into her trap. I defended her even when I secretly knew the truth. I just didn't want to admit it. I like JiU I really do. But I don't know Minji- I fell for a fairytale, something that didn't exist. As much as I want to stay, my priorities are to myself and my family and staying with her would've been suicide. I know it and she knew it too." I said
"She knew it too? Did she really like you?" Yoohyeon asked
"I can't tell." I said "I felt cared for, she listened to me, even when I was telling the most depressing story and she listened to all the happy ones. I felt understood, she also did these little things. We went to the fair and she got me a lion teddy. And a sticker. She got me the sticker because it reminded her of a conversation we had a while ago, a lion because it reminded her of me, and Jieun's nickname for me. All these little things to show that she listened to what I liked and disliked, that she paid attention to me." I said "it felt real. But I can't tell what is real and what is fake with her. Especially not after all this new information." I said
"Sounds like she did" she sighed "That's sad. You both want it, but you know it's not healthy- I guess I don't completely understand, but I also understand quite a bit." She said "is that all that's happened today?" She asked
"Be careful what you ask for, if you truly want to know, we'll be going down a massive black hole" I said
"It's too late to go back on my word now, I've confessed my worst weakness to my worst enemy. I think I'm owed something" she said with a smile of assurance
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Similar Motives~ (Kim JiU x Fem reader)
FanfictionSimilar pasts, different lives (or are they as different as they seem?) The same common enemy. Minji and Y/N seek out vengeance against those who have hurt them and their beloved, what happens when they cross paths? Do they help each other, or do...
